Lovely// G.B.D

A Way

                                    Thought I found a way
                                Thought I found a way out
Bella's POV

    I woke up to the annoying sound of my alarm clock. Today is Wednesday, November 15,2017. And ready to go back to hell I thought.

I looked at my outfit in the mirror. I decided to just not bother today, wearing some black sweatpants with a champion sweatshirt.

It is slowly turning into winter, letting it get chillier and chillier. I go to the bathroom, brush my teeth and grab my glasses, deciding not to wear contacts today. Grabbing my phone I went downstairs to my kitchen with a note on the fridge.

Bella,
I will be gone on a business trip with your father for three days. I left you some money on the counter. No parties or boys;) I will call you later when we land.
Love,
Mom

I smile, imagining my mom's voice and face, as if she was telling me directly. I look for the money to see how much I've got to spend accordingly. I look around the kitchen and spot $300, wow. I could spend $100 a day, or just save it all up and eat leftovers. Oh decisions, decisions.

I glance at the time realizing I am going to be late for school. I rush to my car with everything I need for my day today.

I rush to my locker to see my best friends waiting for me. "Hey hoes" I say opening my locker to get my books for my first class. "Heyy hoe" they all respond together. As soon as I was about to say something the first bell rang.

"See y'all later" I say walking away. Liz and I had first period together, history class. As usual she had a book in her hand while walking. "What book do we have today?" I ask jokingly knowing she is going to finish it today. She laughs at my joke and puts it away so we can talk,uh, I mean learn history. Hoo fucking ra.

-Skip to after lunch-

I am in english class right now, and she basically gave us a free period. I decide to just take a nap so I pull out my headphones and plug them into my phone. I don't have any friends in this class so why would I talk.

Once the music starts playing I put my head down on the desk with my arms wrapped around it. I start dozing off, then Were you there by Aquilo started playing.

Thoughts started rushing into my head. I tried ignoring them until they got to be too much. I stood up from my desk, got a bathroom pass and left the classroom. I left it with no intentions of coming back so I brought my bag with me.

    I kept walking through the school to waste time. I finally got to a point where I couldn't do it anymore. I sat down on the cold hard floor, with my knees up to my chest. I burst out crying. I tried my best to keep quiet, but that is really un-controllable.

I tried doing everything I was told to do when it got to be too much. Nothing was working. I anxiously looked at my watch. There is still 25 minutes left of this class period. It is only fifth period, I can't leave
yet.

    I curled back up into a ball. If you were to pass by me, I'd probably seem high or drunk to you. I'm not high, but I'm drunk off of my thoughts. Drunk thoughts, sober mind.

This is the first time it's happened this bad. Normally I calm down within fifteen minutes. I don't know what happened. I was doing everything I could do to prevent these, I thought it was working. I guess not.

    As I'm still sitting in the corner some guy comes up to me. I can't exactly make out who it is, but by the looks I don't think I know him. He comes up next to me and sits down, in complete silence.

Suddenly I feel one muscular arm snake around my back and another around the front of my chest. I am being pulled in for a hug by someone I don't even know.

    "You alright?" The deep voice asks me with concern. While holding me, he rocks us back and fourth a bit, while rubbing my back giving me reassurance.

    "Honestly, I want to say yes but then I'd be lying to someone I don't even know." I softly say with a slight chuckle at the end.

    "I want to be okay, I truly do, but I'm not. I don't even understand why." I say with my voice shaking.
    "Do you wanna talk about it? If you don't I understand." He asks me.

    "I will try my best to explain it all." I say.
    "Thought I found a way. Thought I found a way out" I start to explain to him.

    "I want you to know that it is okay to not be okay. It is okay to brake and be broken. It all is okay, you will get through this. I will always be here for you. I promise, and I'm not gonna break it." He says soothingly

    "Here let me give you my number, we can talk whenever you want, just be mindful I have football practice." He says taking my phone out of my hand to put his number in it.

    "Thank you. Really, I appreciate this all..." I say signaling for him to give me his name.
    "That doesn't matter right now Bella. I'll see you around" he says getting up probably heading back to class seeing as it ends in five minutes.

    I decide I will just leave school. I won't be able to focus at all. I get up and head out the doors, heading to my car. I get in, send my friends all a quick text that I'm leaving school early. I then drive away to go home.
A/N: Ayy this is the first real chapter. Not sure how long this is going to be but yay! This is going to be an emotional rollercoaster. Also if I get any names mixed up please let me know, as I am writing this book I am also writing coincidentally. Thank you:)