Rain

One Shot

A lot of people find the rain oddly calmly. It's rather funny to me really. I don't understand how anyone could find millions of gallons of water falling to the earth calming. Hell, some people can't sleep without having some sound that mimics, or is the rain. I don't think I can ever understand that. Rain can't calm me anymore.

Ever since the year of 845, I was horrible with the rain. It was fear... no... it was terror that blew in with the rain that bound me in this little wet, cold corner of the room. That damned bastard continuously peered over the edges of my mind, filling my every being with hatred and fear. All I could hear was each and every step he took... the thunder. All I could see was him disappearing in a flash of light and steam, leaving chaos in his wake... the lightning. The doctors called it Ombrophobia. They told me it was a side effect of that day and it would follow me around until I could get some closure... by killing the colossal titan so he can't hurt anyone close to me.

What are the odds that'll happen in the first place?

My back trembles softly as lightning flashes outside and I curl up into an even tighter fetal position, bracing myself for what came next. Thunder always came after the lightning and nothing good ever came from thunder or lightning. The fire that had crackled playfully and warmly was long since dead and cold in the fireplace. The mess hall was a cold and lonely place in the rain, but it was bigger and more comforting than my body crushing room. I usually wouldn't say that, but when I was this terrified, four walls closing in on me didn't help. It had been raining all night now and I was curling up in my usual corner, trembling as I always did. Sometimes I wish I never grew this fear. If anyone ever saw me like this, I would die of mortification after I threatened them with murder to keep their mouth shut.

"Eren... Mikasa... You have to survive!"

"M-Mom..."

Thunder boomed loudly outside and every one of my nerves were alert and screaming at me to run. That it wasn't thunder this time. It was him!

I knew he'd be back. But I didn't have my weapons, what if he hurt Mikasa! I had to get back to the dorms and stop him!

A small scowl graced my lips and I moved to stand, tears slipping down my cheeks. I would do it this time. He wouldn't-

BOOM!!!

My eyes widened to the point of almost falling out and I was vaguely aware of someone shouting, nearly screaming with the roll of thunder. I distantly wondered who it was as I sank to my knees and back into a protective position. That voice was so painstakingly familiar, but it was the least of my worries now. Go away... Another roll of thunder and a flash of light. Another shout of horror. They were mocking me. Shut up! My mind screamed at the phantom voice...

...

I wasn't ever particularly fond of the rain. It got my things wet and it destroyed all of my cleaning work by making the atmosphere sticky and encouraging bugs to escape inside. Pissed me off to be perfectly honest... but it helped me sleep, so it was more like I was on equal terms with the rain. If it let me sleep, then I tolerated it.

What am I saying, I don't have a say in if it rains or not.

A small sigh slipped from my lips and I rolled over in bed, my head feeling pleasantly fuzzy as I was on the edge of sleep. I didn't usually smile but sleep was such a luxury that I couldn't banish the small smile on my face. These cadets were working me raw. I couldn't wait till they were finally senior soldiers. That would give me a week of rest before the next batch of little rats rolled in.

However, that was a problem for tomorrow. Right now, I would take advantage of being showered and curled up in my nice clean white sheets in a pair of sweat pants.