girls • lil peep [✔️]

five

a/n before this update; holy shit y'all are voting on this and viewing it like crazy, i didn't think anyone would read it lol. do you guys like the book so far? any ways, i appreciate all of you guys, thank u

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i sit down on my bed, looking around at the four walls in my room. it was kind of bland. just white walls, no pictures, nothing. i don't really like color anyways. i feel my phone vibrate and i pick it up.

gus 🐣❤️
i miss u boo
scarlet
i miss u 2 baby boy 💔
gus 🐣💔
come overrrrrr
gus 🐣💔
please

i toss my phone onto my bed, grabbing a bag. i quickly throw shit in there like underwear, bras, shirts and shit. i go into my bathroom and get all of my makeup and 'feminine' products.

i put everything into the bag, grabbing my headphones, car keys and phone charger.

i jog down the stairs, making my way to the front door.

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gus is sitting down on the couch, as usual. he turns around, his face lighting up when he sees me. 

"you came." he says, surprised.

"yeah haha. didn't really have anything else to do so i thought, why not come and see gus?"

he embraces me into a tight hug, rubbing my back in the process.

i was still kind of shook from earlier.

i didn't dislike it though. it was something about having his hands on me like that, that i loved. it made me feel all weird inside.

"whatcha thinking bout boo?" he questions me, staring at me with his chin propped up on his hand.

"uh, nothing." i say, clearing my throat.

"don't lie to me."

"why would i?"

suddenly, our conversation is interrupted by someone bursting through the front door.

"yoooo! tracy wassup man, ain't seen yo ass in a minute." gus says, getting up from the couch and doing that weird hug that guys do with eachother.

"aye, man i gotta talk to you about dropping that song we recorded the other night." the guy says to gus. "yea what about it man?" gus responds.

"i'm thinking maybe we should drop it sooner than later. fans are going crazy and if we drop it now, you know it's gonna be a hit. that's gonna be good for you and me man." he explains to gus.

i get up from where i was sitting, walking into the kitchen. is all they drink hennessy? no water or anything, just straight bottles.

"yo and by the way, we throwing a party tonight so get your bitch to clean up or some shit." i hear him say, which pisses me off. one because there's going to be a party here where i plan to stay for a few days, and two because that stupid bitch thinks women are just supposed to clean up. 

"don't call her that bro, and ight. don't worry about shit being clean i'll handle it man. just go get drugs and booze and shit for the party. how many people are gonna be here?" gus asks, reading something on his phone as i stare at him.

"there won't really be room to move, a few hundred people are coming."

i walk leave from the kitchen and walk to where gus is standing, gripping onto his arm and standing next to him. i observe the guy standing in front of him, known as tracy. he blankly glimpses at me then turns back to his conversation with gus.

"oh yea, by the way my name's tracy. i'm gus's bro so, you gotta get used to being around me ma." he says to me, introducing himself. i look up at gus and see him rolling his eyes, probably because he called me 'ma'. 

"i'm scarlet." i tell tracy, introducing myself to him as he did to me.

"cool. well, i gotta get going. i'll be back around like eightish? just text me bro." tracy says, walking out of the front door.

"well, that's tracy." gus says, turning around and walking to the kitchen. he starts to pick up trash from the counter, throwing it away. i watch him organize the bottles of various types of alcohol. he then gets out a bunch of plastic cups, setting them next to the alcohol.

"do you want me to stay for the party? i can go if you-"

"stop asking to leave. scarlet, i don't want you to leave. i wanna be around you, you make me feel." he says, cutting me off.

i make him feel? feel what?

"i make you feel what?" i question.

he stops, and puts his hands on the counter. 

"scarlet, don't." he says to me, a painful look washing over his face.

i walk over to him, lifting up his chin. "don't what gus?" i say, staring him in the eyes. i watch as tears well up.

"don't make me love you, you're just like the rest." he says, and i can hear the pain in his voice and see the hurt in his eyes. what does he mean i'm just like the rest? the rest of the bitches who have hurt him?

i move his sloppy hair over to the side, running my hands through it. he bites his lip, holding it between his teeth. i run my thumb over his lip after he releases it and close my eyes. 

i look up at him, and bring his head down to mine. i lick my lips, and press them onto his. he kisses me back, wrapping his arms around me as he deepens the kiss. i pull away, biting his lip and releasing it after i pull from him. 

"i'm never going to hurt you, gus. i don't want to hurt you."