If I showed my true colors what would society think?
Would they Lough, show pity, or read ink
I'm exhausted of smiling every single day
When I know the pain will go away
Every night I can not sleep
Because my thoughts run so deep
My focus is no longer there,anywhere
I don't know why I'm like this, I swear
It seems like I'm just well depressed
That just means how much I'm stressed
My friends laugh and hand out
You don't need water to drown
This darkness beneathe comsumes my mind
It's like I'm living my life blind
On the outside I'm holding it together
But it's as unpredictable as the weather
"How are you?" "I'm fine"
But the truth lies between lines
It's like being on Mars and trying to breathe air
When they talk about future, I don't care
You say to suck it up and be strong
But little do you know exactly what is wrong
My life is forever altered because of this
That cheerful 5 year old I miss
This war; you either win or die trying
You speak the truth to continue your lying
The changes we're all so very subtle I don't blame you for not seeing
But you don't understand is that I'm a human being
The truth is you wouldn't last if this was your brain
But I've found a way to numb the pain
I have to fight my mind every single second
But that's only because this thing beckoned
I wouldn't ever feel this way; these were the cards I was delt
My only wish is that more people knew how I felt
Sometimes of wonder wandering on over
But it's as rare as finding a four leaf clover
Monsters don't live under our beds
They scream inside our heads
Still I live with hope that one day I will win
I will defeat the monster that's under my skin
