White Carnations (N x Reader)

A/N: A wonderful friend of mine made something amazing for me, so I made this for her as a thank you! I do not own Pokémon or N though both will always to be dear to my heart. Hope you enjoy! 

Note: I am going to be using Surperior and Reshiram in this, so if you prefer one of the other starter pokémon or Zekrom, mentally insert that pokémon where Surperior and Reshiram are mentioned. Thanks!

Sunlight dappled the grass around you, streaming in small beams through the leaves of the trees around you. You took a deep breath in and out, enjoying the simple pleasure of oxygen entering and leaving your lungs and the feel of soft, luscious grass beneath your relaxed body. The soft, slow breaths of the sleeping pokémon next to you brought a small smile to your face, your hand stroking along the top of its head lovingly.

You treasured small, peaceful moments like these. Time seemed to stop as the forest enveloped you, giving you and your Surperior a welcome respite from the pressures of civilization. The quiet of the forest allowed you a moment to yourself, a moment for your thoughts to wander, a moment to think about...

A sudden gust of wind blew locks of hair into your face, shielding your sad, troubled expression from the rest of the world. You sat up and brushed away the stray pieces of hair, examining the long-dead flower clutched gently in your hand. Five years ago, this flower, a white carnation, had been the picture of beauty, lacy petals reaching outwards with all the hopeful innocence of the man who had given it to you. Though you had done your best to preserve the flower, it's petals had changed from a heavenly white to a dull yellow, the petals crunching dangerously whenever you picked it up. Multiple times, your mother and your friends had attempted to coax you into giving up the flower, to leave behind what it meant, but every time, you refused.

This flower was a promise, a promise that he...that N would return, and until he did you would not even consider getting rid of it.

You fell back onto the plush grass, hair falling wildly about your head and arms stretched out perpendicular from your body. A small noise of annoyance came from the dozing Surperior next to you before it nuzzled closer to you and resumed it's nap. Smiling softly, you closed your eyes and let the sounds the forest calm your mind, soon drifting off to your own dreams. 

Your heart pounded wildly in your chest as you dropped to your knees, breathing heavily. Was the building shaking? Your ears were ringing and you could taste blood but you weren't paying any attention to that. Only one thought repeated through your head.

'Have I really just won? Is it really over?'

As the ringing in your head subsided, you gathered your feet beneath you and rose to meet whatever came next. Cheren and Alder had somehow entered the room and were dragging a struggling Ghetsis away. Foam had gathered at the corners of the older man's mouth as he thrashed violently against his captors, made hysterical by defeat. Reshiram stood proudly next to you, legendary power continuing to exude from it's rippling body despite the fierce battle it had just taken part in. Finally, your eyes found the last and most important figure in the room.

N was standing frozen near the entrance Ghetsis, Cheren, and Alder had just disappeared through. The green hair you had admired and longed to run your fingers through so many times hung in his face, shielding his expression from your concerned stare. Neither of you spoke or moved until the sounds of Ghetsis's struggle had completely vanished. 

What could you say to him in a moment like this where he had lost everything he had ever known? What could you say to him when you were the main reason behind that loss in the first place?