Aim And shoot!(jack dylan grazer)

chapter 9-Not loved/Jack

The reason im like this.........well the reason is simple im not loved.My Family never cared about me and they never will.My dad would come home late drunk and smelling like alcohol.My mom well my mom is dead because of me......It was my fault shes dead.She laid there not breathing....cold......dead.I would open my window every day so the smell of alcohol wouldnt sting my nose every time i breath.When i Heard a new girl was coming into town i knew she was going to be like a drug to me i would either hook up with her and then leave her or i would stay with her and kill her for speacial reasons but she wasnt like everyone else......she wasnt easy to hook up with.....she was tough and i loved it for some random reason but i knew when she knew the truth she would run far away from me and call the pólice but no she stayed with me and dealed with my attitude......When i Heard she left the house without saying goodbye i knew i did something wrong and......it hurt alot........but seeing her standing right infront of me and feeling her against me made me feel alive again.....and that i havent felt in a long time.....I admit it i love her and her dumb sarcasism i loved when she was mad and when i see her wake up it makes me feel like im doing the right thing.......i love y/n

ugh such a weird chapter i know but im tired sooooo yeah :)