Painless...Stainless...Emotionless...

Day one...

I woke up, still tired...

My memories are still there, still haunting my every beautiful dream, turning it into sweaty, bloody nightmares.

Sitting up, I rubbed my face, quickly pulling my black hair into a ponytail, swinging my legs off the bed.

Slouching, I went to my bathroom, turning on the shower, letting it run while I grabbed my toothbrush, grabbing the toothpaste tube. Opening it, I place it against my toothbrush, squeezing it so I could get some toothpaste out of the tube.

After getting out the right amount, I placed the tube down and started brushing my teeth, steam filling the bathroom which indicated the water was hot enough.

Taking off my tank top and boxers, I slid into the shower, letting the hot water burn my skin.

I felt nothing though, I felt...empty?...sad?...depressed?...I didn't feel pain...I felt, nothing...All I know, is that it hurts...too much.

Stepping out of the shower, I dried off, staring into the steamy mirror. I only saw a sad man...a sad man with burn scars on his arm, hand...palm...Those are only memories now...unpleasant memories...

Shaking my head, I went to get dressed for work. Sliding on my normal black shirt, rolling the sleeves up to my elbows, putting on black pants, and black shoes, along with a blood red tie around my neck.

With a long, depressed sigh, I walked over and grabbed my phone, shoving it in my pocket, grabbing the keys to my car, heading out. 

Unlocking and hopping into my car, I shoved the keys into the contact, sitting still for a moment. Grasping the steering wheel with one hand, grasping the keys with the other, I turned them...

Nothing happened. Once again, turning the keys in the contact, nothing...Shaking my head, I slammed my foot onto the gas, turning the keys, the car finally starting, but I drove into a tree..

Blood on my head, windows broken, glass shards in my eyes, I called for help, no one came, the only thing I heard was "You could've saved them...instead..." over and over again, then I blacked out.