It's been a month since I arrived in Canada and I've gotten closer and closer to the guys as each day passes. Each day brings new and exciting things which I will remember forever. In the space of one month, I have become so close to this group of guys. Before I got here I imagined spending my time rocking baby Luke to sleep, reading an endless amount of books and watching YouTube videos all day, every day, but no. Instead I got to meet this amazing group of friends who are so amazing. They treat me like an angel, nothing like how I was treated at home. Here, I am treated with respect and that is something that I'll cherrish forever.
Shawn and I are so close, he's like a brother to me. Tim has shown some interest in me but Shawn is like an over-protective big brother to me, he won't let anyone near me just incase anything bad happens. I really love that about him. I haven't had anyone in my life to protect me and keep me safe. Usually that is something that parents do, but mine aren't your typical parents. They ruined my life in the last year and then sent me so far away so they wouldn't have to see me. That's not protection, that's cruelty.
I wake up everyday hoping that none of the guys will find out what I did during my past year in London. I am so scared that they will. If they find out, they'll hate me and will probably never speak to me again. I can't have them knowing what I've done. Especially Shawn. If he knew, I know it would kill him. Seeing him hurt would kill me so that was definitely not going to happen.
Since I've gotten here, I haven't heard from anyone back home except for my two younger sisters. I FaceTime them every morning when I wake up. Shawn has talked to them a few times and they absolutely adore him! He's so good with young children. My life here in Canada is going so perfectly and I really hope nothing will ruin that.
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''Lucy!! Wake up!! Shawn's here!!'' Sharon screamed from the top of the stairs.
I woke up sprawled across my bed, stretching while trying to wake myself up. Once I had registered what was going on I started to panic. I can't have Shawn see me like this... I look like a troll! My hair is a mess from my sleep, I have no makeup on and I wear his MAGCON hoodie that he gave me to bed. If he saw me like this: 1. He'd think im so ugly and 2. He'd think i'm a creep for wearing his hoodie to bed.
I scrambled out of bed and rushed into my bathroom just as Shawn started climbing the stairs up to my room.
''Yo Luc, c'mon we have to go! We'll be late if you dont hurry up!'' he called as he entered my room. ''Lucy? Where are you?''
''Just in the bathroom!'' I called. ''Be out in a sec!''
Before I had a chance to do anything, the bathroom door swung open and Shawn was standing in the doorway.
''Shawn! I could have been on the toilet or something!! Seriously!! Give a girl her privacy!!'' I yelled.
''Sorry babe, I just couldn't resist the urge to see you.'' He winked.
God he was such a weirdo. Shawn and I were going go-karting today. I've never been so this should be seriously interesting. Oh crap! I look a mess. I quickly turned away from Shawn.
''Can you please get out? I just woke up, I look a mess and I don't want you to see me without any makeup on.''
''Luc, you know I don't care what you look like. It's not like i'm going to hate you just because you have messy hair and tired eyes from sleeping...'' he sympathetically soothed me. I turned to him and smiled. He always knew how to make me feel better.
''Thanks Shawn but please get out for a sec so I can get ready.''
''Alright I'll go get your laptop and go on twitter or something while I'm waiting'' he said while walking away from the bathroom and towards my bed where my laptop was laying. Just before I closed the door to the bathroom he turned around with a sly smirk on his face.
