Take Me Higher |markjin|

[4]

Jinyoung closed his bedroom door gently. He laid on his king size bed, thinking about nothing. He felt like his mind is messed up. It’s midnight yet he still can’t sleep.

“How the fuck I didn’t hear someone walked in? I was too passionate then,” he pulled his blanket all over his body, a smirk suddenly appeared on his face as he remembered how great the pleasure was.

“And I bet Jackson is mad at me right now. He doesn’t even reply my chats. I mean, I did nothing wrong,” he mumbled to himself.

He checked his phone for a hundred times, in case Jackson finally left him some messages. But, as he expected, he found nothing. He felt numb. Why does Jackson mad at him? Jackson is not a type of person who mad easily, over the dumb thing like that. He’s funny and cheerful, he doesn’t usually behaving like this, and it made Jinyoung confused.

Jinyoung rubbed his lips. “Am I a bad kisser though?” he giggled. “Ah nevermind, gonna leave some voice messages to Sseunie,”

He missed him. Really. The fact that Jackson left him so suddenly after they broke their kiss is still haunting him.

“Jackson.”

“Sseunie,”

“Are you mad at me? Did I wrong?”

“Sseunie, say something please. Can I call you?”

Jinyoung pinched his forehead. “No stupid, I’ll bother him if i called him at midnight like this. Jinyoung, think, think!”

He kept staring at their chatroom blankly. Jackson doesn’t even read them since the party was already over. Not intended to be intimidating, but he just worried about Jackson. Jackson has a brittle heart, he knows it well.

“Or maybe he needs to be alone since that accident happened?” he tried to clear his mind. “Okay then. I’ll try to understa—wait, shit! He read those messages already?!”

“Fell asleep. Right after I left.” Jackson texted.

Jinyoung freaked out. He straightened his body so he can sit properly. “I miss you love. Can I call you?”

Without any approval, Jinyoung immediately hit the call button. He couldn't wait any longer because he missed Jackson so much.

“Gosh, you must be so tired Sseunie. Glad that you rested well!” Jinyoung's voice sounds relieved.

“Don’t call me like that.”

“What happened? Was something wrong? Seems like you didn’t enjoy—”

“He was right,” Jackson interrupted Jinyoung’s sentence. His voice sounded gloomy.

Jinyoung cleared his throat. “Who? Who was right? What was right?”

“That blonde guy. Don’t you think about it? He was right. We aren’t a couple. Even stranger could see it,”

Jinyoung stayed in silence. “Sseunie...?”

“It broke my heart,” Jackson took a deep breath. “Let’s just stop it all right now.”

“S-sseunie,” he whimpered.

Jackson sighed through the phone. “Stop. It.”

“Daddy please,”

“Stop it Jinyoung! Enough. No more. I’ve said tha—”

“And that was the reason? Why should I accept that dumb reason? It was nothing! That blonde guy uttered it just for nothing! Why you gotta be like th-this...” his voice cracked.

“Well, he must've said it based on what he just saw—” Jackson suddenly gave a break. “—wait please hold on just more minutes babe—” he whispered at his last sentence, looks like he just spoke to someone beside him.

“Sseunie what was that?!" Jinyoung’s voice raised. "Tell me, you got a new person aren’t you?! That’s why—”

“None of your business, possessive hoe.” Jackson interrupted Jinyoung before he could finish his rants.

“H-hoe?!” his eyes became watery. “YOU ARE!” he yelled as he tried hard to balancing his voice and not to crack it, even though it’s pretty hard. "You even lied to me, you didn't sleep right after the party!"

Jackson sighed hard. "I must have said this earlier, i'm tired of us. Stays in a commitment and shit but not in a bound of relationship? You know i'm not a commitment person but you forced me to do it," he said. "We both said we could do those things just because of lust."

Jinyoung held his tears. "Y-you've been hiding it since a long t-time..."

“Moron. Wasn't it obvious? Let's just stop it all right here, right now,” his deep-raspy voice became more serious.

“Whoa," Jinyoung shook his head. "I can’t believe you. Loser. Crazy bastard. Who in the world ended his relationship through the phone?”

“Me,” Jackson laughed without feeling guilty at all. “And, i said, we weren’t on relationship you fool.”

Jinyoung couldn’t say anything at all. This was… too fast. All of them. Why did he change from a funny man into a unpleasant human like this? He had to process all of these things in his head. Jackson cheated on him, even though it’s true that they weren’t on a relationship before. It's right that they've used each other for their own lust.

“And,” Jackson added. “I have to end this call. Bye, I guess?”

Suddenly the phone call has already ended.

Maintaining his silence, tears slowly streamed down his cheeks as he threw his phone to the table, made the screen half cracked. Jinyoung pulled the blanket all over his body, covering his pathetic face to make sure that no one can see his swollen eyes later when the sun came up. The ache in his heart is unbearable as the pictures of their moments started to playing in his head, made him dizzy and more suffering. What this broken-hearted man can do? It deeply hurts. More than hurts.

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