Why am I so fucking stupid? I can't ever do anything. I'm useless to this town, this society, this planet, this whole fucking universe. Why can't I just think? I can't complete one fucking assignment in a reasonable amount of time. Because I'm just that fucking dumb. Even on 36g I'm dumb as fuck. My brain just can't calm the fuck down. It just keeps going and going and I don't even know where it's going. Help. Help me. I can't take it. My thoughts blur and then my vision blurs and I can't stop it. I can't do anything. I can't do anything but punch and hit. I was doing so well, and I was fighting it. But I don't WANT to, what if I don't WANT to be happy. What if I LIKE being sad, like hating myself? I deserve it too.
