The Secret We Kept 2 (Sample)

Chapter Four

                                                                                       < Kimberly >

Never in a million years did I think I would run into Anthony again. Okay, yes I always wished to run into him so that I can give him a piece of my mind, and so that Royal can meet him, but I didn't think it would be this soon. Alright, I know four years is a long time not to see someone especially since if he is the father of your child, but it is too soon for me. When I saw him all the feelings and emotions I thought I buried had resurfaced and I just knew that I didn't really get over him. Just standing there in front of him and hearing his voice did something to me. I wanted to slap and kiss him at the same time. I just knew I needed to get out of there. I felt like the walls was closing in on me and it was getting hard for me to breathe. I just couldn't be around him. I wasn't ready to face him just yet.

Then his father was there to make matters worse. I couldn't stand being around that man after everything him, his wife, and Veronica did to ruin whatever relationship Royal and Anthony had. It was just too much so I ran. I am just not ready to face him yet. It's too painful. I quickly run to my car and place Royal inside making sure he is strapped in. I then get in myself and drive off.

"Mommy, I want daddy!" Royal whines behind me.

This isn't good at all.

"I want daddy!" he shouts louder which is the catalyst of his tantrum.

"Royal, not now okay? Mommy needs to think and I you can't go to your daddy right now." I respond trying to sooth him but he is not having it today.

"I want daddy now!" he responds angrily kicking the back of my seat.

I take a deep breath trying to control all my emotions and not snap at Royal, but he is really pushing it. I know he is just a child and doesn't understand the full extent of the situation at hand. I know it's going to be hard for him to understand, but I know I need to try to explain it to him. He is going to want his father, but I cannot be around Anthony right now. I know it's selfish and that he needs this connection with his father, but I just can't right now.

"Royal honey, we can't see daddy right now, okay? Maybe later, but right now is not a good time, okay?" I said glancing at him through my rearview mirror hoping he can just agree with me and go with the flow, but we all know how kids are. They want what they want and if they don't receive what they want they will throw a tantrum.

"I want daddy now!" he shouts again while kicking my seat.

Now, I know some people are against corporal punishment but I am all for it. If your child is acting up and not listening to you then they need their butt beat. I don't always whoop Royal, but if he needs it I would do it. Like right, now he needs, one but I am not going to do it. The reason why is because my emotions are high right now and I do not want to hurt him, and two I know he is upset because that was his first time ever seeing his father and I just kind of yanked him away from him. He has been asking about his father for the longest and I know he was really happy to finally see him and for me to take him away from him and not explain why and not understand what is going on I can understand why he is upset. So for now, I am going to let him slid and throw his little fit, but he is going to be quiet. I am not going to tolerate him kicking, screaming, and crying.

"I want daddy!!"

"ROYAL!" I shout causing him to cease his tantrum. "I know you want your daddy, but you are not about to throw a tantrum. You need to quiet down, okay?" I glance at him through the rearview mirror again before looking back at the road.

"I want daddy," he states again more calmly this time.

I sigh and slightly shake my head not knowing exactly what to say to him.