"Can you fix the broken?" An Oliver Skyes Fanfiction

Holllow out my hungry eyes

Kaylees pov;                                                                                                                                                                                                                     The night was full of regrets from both me and Hope me mostly.I went home with some douche that I let touch me in that way i havent been touched for a long time.Hope texted her useless ex while she was drunk telling him that she wanted him back now he wont stop calling her phone and its driving her crazy.Me on the other hand is just laying in my room in the darkness thinking about life in general.Never would i thought i would get this far.From my tennage days where i was coped up in my room every day sleeping and crying mostly crying.How i used to feel that there was nobody there for me.How i attempted to end my life so many times just to fail every time,every six times.Ive changed so much.How im happy on some days when used to drad every day of my exitense when i was younger.I mean im still into the drugs i have been sence i was 14.I still drink like i used too.I just got so used to numbing the pain.Hope knocked on my door and i turned on my other side facing away frkm the door. ';Babe are you okay''hope asked me.Am I okay I dont even know what being okay was.Ive never really felt happy you know.Im ussaully happy sence i moved but sometimes i have my episodes when I think to much and i just completly shut down.''I dont know whats wrong with me Hope''I said as my eyes watered.''Theres nothing wrong with you,your perfect''she said.I heard her shut the door and shuffle her way to my bed and sid down at the corner.''if i was perfect i shouldnt feel this way about myself''i said.'everybody has diffrent opinions about themselves doesnt mean there true hun'hope said.I diddnt say anything i just turned over so i was laying on my back staring at the celiling fan as it went around and around.'Your going out get dressed'Hope demanded 'I dont really want to.''i said ''it really wasnt a question''hope said.''where we going'' 'Ill tel you when we get there dress cute''she said.I sighed and rolled my eyes.I got up and went to my bathroom not even looking at Hope.I look at myself in the mirror and let everything set in.I have dark purple bags under my eyes my hair is a tangled mess .I look pale you know how you look really pale in the face when you wake up its worst that that like 3x worse.I sigh and grab a towel from the coverd and i step on the scale at once regretting it 115.7pounds.I disqust myself.Ive been lower and oh god ive been higher.I turn on the shower strp and get in doing my bussiness after about 15mins i step ound and wrap the towel around my body.I walk back into my room to see Hope has left.I go to my drawer and grab undergarments.I put them on and go to my closet i pick out shredded black skinny jeans showing alot of my upper thighs.I slowely put them on and put on a W.O.W off the shoulder gray sweater with all the charters performing witch craft uhm doont even ask where i got this from[i really do have this].I put on a pare of old beat up black toms.I travel to the bathroom not even wanting to put on makeup cause it just sounds gross right now.I brush my hair and straigted it.Parted it to where its down the middle and pinned my bangs back on both sides with my skelontion clips.I walked out the room and told hope im ready.When I went into her rooom she was turned away from the door and she was putting on lipdtick.She looked at me and stared wude eyed proubley because my eyes are bloodshot red and have terrible bags.She said ok and soon enough we were in my car and she was driving.We went to a amusment park.She knows i loive these i smiled small at her.And rushed to get out the car.We went to get passes in the line that was way to long but i diddnt mind.I felt like somebody was staring at me you know that feeling when you know.Hope grabbed my hand interlocking our fingers why? i have no clue.I turned around to be met by olis eyes.I gave him the most emotionless look ever.There was somthing in his eyes worry? for what.I turned back around and leaned my head on  Hopes shoulder she smiled.''And you say your not perfect''she said loud enough for the people behind me ''Thers no such thing as perfect''I said in a sort of a whisper but i knew she heard me.She kissed my cheek.Ugh i wonder what up with her does she really like mre i have no idea because shes really treating me like it.