the other twin • ethan dolan

chapter one

   your p.o.v
        everyone has had a crush before. most crushes are simple short-term crushes that are easily forgotten about, but for others like me, that isn't the case. my name is y/n. i have a huge crush on probably the biggest fuckboy at my high school. his name is Grayson.

Grayson Dolan.

       you may be thinking, why would i have such a big crush on a fuckboy, so let me give you a look from the past.

        Grayson Dolan wasn't always known as the "fuckboy of the school," but he did earn that reputation soon after high school started. i'm sure you've heard the saying, "high school changes people," and yes, that's the truth. in middle school, Grayson and I were best friends. he was the sweetest person i knew. he was so caring and generous. he always wanted to be there for those that he loved, and he hated to see people hurt. he wanted everyone around him to feel needed and to have worth, but once high school hit, that Grayson disappeared.

       now you're probably still wondering, "why do you like him so much then?," and to answer your question, i really don't know. i feel like Grayson is capable of change, but something in me is just holding onto the memory of how he used to be with hopes that he will soon return to his old self, so that me and him could have a chance. i guess you may think that i sound absolutely crazy, but in my mind, it seems pretty logical. how could a person change so much in just two years?

        i am now a junior in high school and i haven't spoken to Grayson since 9th grade. he has a hold on me that i haven't really been able to bring myself to let go of. other guys have tried to talk to me, but they aren't Grayson. my mind is just stuck on him and i haven't found any way around him. i haven't seen anyone else how i see him and it drives me absolutely insane.

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       "emily. i don't know what to do. my thoughts of grayson are literally taking me over now." i explain to my best friend.
        "y/n, why don't you just talk to him? you haven't spoken to the kid in what, 2 years? you don't know how he feels and you can't keep sitting around just wondering what he's thinking and waiting for him to come to you."
        "but what if he turns me down? if i feel like this now, how will i ever be able to deal with that?"
         "if he turns you down then it's just a sign that it wasn't meant to be. there are plenty of guys that are out there and i really don't understand what draws you to grayson, but if your feelings are that strong, you can't just hold it in. on some real shit though, if he turns you down, he'll get his dick cut off real quick."
        "you're the craziest bitch i know dude. i hope nobody ever breaks your heart, because they got some shit coming for them for sure." i say laughing my ass off
        "guys are stupid for real. break my heart or my best friends' heart and i'll break your dick. simple." emily says in a normal tone
        "that's insane, em. but i'll probably tell him tomorrow. i don't know. i'm scared to confront him."
        "bitch, you won't probably do nothing, you are going to do it and i am going to be waiting right there for you to tell me what he says. if you really like him so much you need to tell him, girl."

        i mean i guess she's right. i can't just wait for things to happen naturally. i have to grow some balls and do it myself before it's too late.

        "i'm gonna do it."

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end of chapter one.

OKAYYY! i hope you guys liked this chapter. i know it was short and probably a little boring, but it's about to start getting JUICYYY.

what do you guys think is gonna happen next ?

- han 💋