A Small World

Byron

Byron

Fuck , fuck , fuck! I should have connected the dots when rick was telling me about maries kids .I figured when he said the twins Stephan and Corey I figured they were both boys not boy girl. Definitely not MY Corey, not the girl I haven't been able to get out of my head the past few years. Not the girl I imagine anytime I am fucking some other girl. fuck this is on a level of weird I can't handle. Maybe I should just move in with tommy till I get on my feet. I mean I'm 18 now I can move out and my parents can't do shit to stop me. Ill try to get a night job so I can finish this last year of high school. Dammit I thought this was going to make my life easier moving in with rick and his new family. Now I gotta go out to eat and try not to make eye contact with her. Gotta try and not be obvious we know each other. Shit I'm gonna have to talk to her and let her know not to say shit to rick and Marie. This is going to be a long fucking night, and rick threw my cigarettes out the window on the way here. Marie taps my shoulder to get my attention. Hey Hun, let me show you to your room, you can get cleaned up and ready to go. Thank you, Marie that would be nice. She smiles, and I can see where Corey gets her smile from. she wraps her arm around my waist and leads me up stairs to the last bedroom to the right. She opens the door and I see rick has already put my stuff in here with some stuff I had at his old house, like some football trophies I had in middle school and my Puerto Rican flag hanging up over my bed. I hope you like it, rick and I tried to make it comfortable for you so it would feel at home here. I see her caring expression and see she really means it. Thank you, Marie this is great. She nods and gives my arm a caring squeeze and takes her leave. Once the door shuts I run my fingers through my spikey hair and take the room in , its nicer than my room when I was living with mami , I had to share a room with a my half-brother and step brother so having my own room will be interesting. I go through my suit case and find some fresh clothes and put them on. I put my light cotton black shirt on with my camouflage print shorts I find my black timberland boots and put them on. I glance in the mirror and part of me wants to look good for HER, fuck I gotta get her out of my head. I put my necklace on and my watch that I had in my bag and apply 2 sprays of my axe body spray. I turn of the light place my wallet and cellphone in my pocket and start to head out the door. I go to close my door I hear music from the room beside the bathroom I stop to hear what song it is when I realize its Corey's room and she is singing. My heart skips a beat as I imagine her dancing around singing into her hair brush like she did back then, when she tried to cheer me up. I rush the thoughts away and knock on her door. Might as well get this over with. After the second knock she opens the door but from the look on her face I was not who she expected to be at her door. He hair is wet and is dripping down her shoulders and back and she's wrapped in her towel. my dick wakes up immediately, I look up and try and think about football and cars and anything that will get the image of her out of my head. What do you want BYRON she says my name in a mocking tone 'You can still call me matt, core'. I tell her still not making eye contact. No, I cannot call you matt because you are not matt you are BYRON. Now what do you want. When I finally make eye contact I see hurt in her eyes and she is nibbling her bottom lip, images of me pushing her against the door and tasting her lips again come flashing through my mind. I shake my head to clear them out. Look my name Byron Mateo Lopez, I hate the name BYRON, so I always tell people to call me matt as in Mateo, no one ever says Mateo right so ive just stuck with matt. She just looks at me with a blank stare like anything I'm saying doesn't mean shit to her. I exhale and continue to talk in a whisper, I don't know if you have said anything to them, I point down stairs to show who im talking about, but I feel it's better we don't talk about it with ANYONE. She holds the towel tight to her as, so it won't fall and lets out a sigh, I was gonna say the same thing. Mom is in fragile state and I don't want to upset her and honestly it was so long ago it means nothing. She said with an emotionless face. This should make me feel better that it doesn't, and we can move past this and I wont have to leave out of being uncomfortable here but really it feels like she just jabbed her tiny hands in my chest and squeezed my heart. I back up some and take her all in. I nod in understanding , I clear my throat , yea IM glad were on the same page SIS. Her eyes start shooting daggers and I know I pushed a button and honestly It felt good. She walks closer to me and goes to put her tiny finger in my face when we hear , ahem am I interrupting something? Stephan is walking up the stairs glaring at us. She looks at him then to me , the bathroom is that room right there and points to the door in front of hers. I just stare at her dumbfounded . when it hits me she wants me to play along I nod and say thank you and turn around and knock on the other door knowing damn well no one is n there. I open the door and smile at the twins who is staring in my direction. I close the door and pace back in forth , trying to piece together our conversation. So she doesn't care, she doesn't feel anything about the past and everything that happened. Ive been thinking bout her every day since that last day and she gonna say it all ment nothing! Fuck why does this matter. I turn on the cold water from the faucet and place my hands to collect some water to splash on my face. I look up and grab a towel to pat my face and hands dry . fuck this , she wants to act like it means nothing then fine , i can be just as heartless. I open the door and the twins are thankfully gone. I walk down stairs and rick is sitting on the couch watching the news . Hey you, do you like your room? Yea its cool I respond nonchalant. He nods and gestures me to sit down beside him. Okay now for some ground rules , no girls over with out permission I know your 18 now but this is my house and that how its gonna be. I cant stop you from smoking but it better not be here or anywhere near Marie. I nod . I wanna say fuck this im out but im not trynna fight with him already. Another thing you go to school and come home in time for dinner , no fighting and keep your grades up in school and graduate and then we can talk about college. My eyes open wide at this new conversation. What you mean college? I ask in surprise. Ive already spoken with your mother if you show that you can be behave and show us that your working hard in school ill pay for college and you can stay here to save money till you are on your feet. I look at him like IM ready for him to say just kidding dip shit. Like IM use to Brian saying , the piece of shit that's married to my mom. But he just stares at me waiting for me to say some thing. Are you serious ri... dad? He pats me on the back of course. But you gotta show me you deserve it and want this though Mateo (like me rick has always hatted the name Byron so he usually calls me Mateo which was he fathers name) . yes sir I will. I lean back on the couch and contemplate everything he just said to me. This could be my chance to make something of my self. Suddenly the dark future I saw for myself had a dim light at the end of the tunnel. Mateo one more thing, I noticed you and little Corey exchanging some weird looks at each other, I don't know what that was about but I know how you are with females. She's your step sister and you will keep it in your pants you hear me? Rick said in a harshed whisper. I stare back at him understanding everything he is and isn't saying about that. Yes sir I will.