Everything you need to know

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Dear mother,

There was never a specific event and it was not one of your sentences that made me leave that day.
I simply had to ,and everything I did ,I didn't do because of you.
On the news they will say horrible things about me and I want you to know that all those things are true.
People will come to your door and ask you why ,some will try to analyse me and blame it on you.
The man I love is dead and I am dying of heartbreake ,but my body will fall asleep and never wake up because of a bullet, placed into my heart by an angry man.
I believed everybody has a role to play in this sick comedy, but as my life fades away I still don't know why.
They will say I was a psychopath, sociopath, or whatever they want to call it. But the truth is that's just how I am. It's simple , don't try to make it complicated.
Jack always liked the way I loved death ,now I am not so sure if I understood death at all. But there is no going back now.

Dear mother,
I know you never missed me and I rarely thought about you.
But I loved the way you lied to me ,and the way you screamed at me ,and the way you never truly saw me, when you looked at me.
I left because I wanted to , I did everything because I wanted to ,and I never did the good things because they were nice.
I never did anything because it was bad or good or some shit in between
,but because I felt like doing it.
And I failed.
And now I die young and alone ,but I don't feel pain or sadness.
I only feel the soft wind blowing through my still slightly wet hair and the white sand beneath my feet.
And for the first time in my life I feel truly happy and at peace.

Yours truly,
Josephine White.

*English is not my native language ,so please don't mind any gramma and spelling mistakes*

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