My Possesive Control Freak

Chapter 32

I open my eyes to find the face of the person I thought was dead since last three years.

Now that he is standing front of me I feel betrayed. I have been grieving his death all these years feeling guilty but here he is looking just like he looked three years back.

I look around myself to find myself sitting in their living room. The same place where we had so many memories together.

I find Aiden sitting on the leather sofa opposite to me looking worried.

"Baby?" The deep voice which I was in love with speaks making me turn towards him.

He comes to sit next to me and takes my hands in his which I instantly snatch away. A hurt expression crosses over his face.

"Baby lis.." he starts but I cut him off.

"No. Stop. Who are you?" I snap at him.

"I'll explain everything baby..." he starts but I again cut him off.

"First of all. Stop calling me baby. You lost the right to call me that." I hiss in anger.

Does he think that coming back to life like this after three fucking years is normal!?

Right now I don't care whatever the reason might be..I'm not ready.

I don't know what to feel. Should I be happy that my first love is not dead? Or should I be mad that he was lying all this years?

"I'm sorry Mayla but please you need to hear me out." he pleads with a pained expression.

I stood up from the sofa to stare at him.

"No. You hear me out. Do you know how much I have suffered all this time? Thinking that you were dead?! That my first love died in front of my eyes and I was unable to do anything!" I all but scream at him.

"I have cried and cried that I lost you. I was not myself without you. And for what did I do all that? Visiting the cemetery every month on our trio day and shedding tears. For getting this? After three years?!" I shout pointing at him.

He looks taken aback by my outburst and doesn't speak for a few minutes and just stares at me.

He composes himself and then comes near me and I take steps back.

"You think it was easy for me to live without you!? No. I have suffered equally just as you have. You atleast thought that I was no longer in this world. But what about me? I have to live every single day knowing that you're alive and still I couldn't be with you. I have never stopped loving you baby. Please just trust me and let me explain why I did it." he speaks with so much pain that it hurt me too.

No matter whatever happened or happens one thing is very clear that I'll never stop loving him.

"I love you Mayla. Please let me explain." he says slowly coming close to me.

This time I don't back away when he holds my hand.

"Josh."I whisper staring into his eyes full of emotions.

He slowly wraps his arms around me and my hands too make their way around his neck and I find myself leaning in his touch.

My eyes are already watering from what happened in just last hour.

But during that few seconds of hugging Josh I realize something.

Josh is my first love and he still has a place in my heart which will never be filled by someone else.

He hugs me a little tighter as if he was scared I would disappear.

But I don't get the shivers and butterflies in me like I get even by Ryan's touch.

It's not like I got them three years back. I never believed that those things even existed till Ryan stepped into my life.

I break the hug and move away from him. He looks puzzled by my sudden change.

"Baby?" he asks.

"Please Josh. Don't call me that." I said firmly.

"Fine. Will you hear me out now?" he asks.

"No." I say without stuttering.

"Why?"

"What do you mean why!? You come back all of a sudden and expect me to hear you out!? I'm not ready to hear you Josh. I need time to digest that you're alive."

"I understand." he mumbles slowly.

"Cupcake?" Aiden calls me from behind but I don't turn.

"Were you aware about all this?" I ask without looking at him.

There is a moment of silence after which he speaks.

"Yes."

"So you too betrayed me?!" my voice is almost a whisper as tears flow freely making my cheeks wet.

He comes to hold me and I'm feel so weak that I can't even push him.

"I didn't betray you cupcake. You really need to hear it out." he speaks still holding me.

"Enough.Leave me." I demand.

I stand up and search for my cell phone still crying. When I find my bag besides the sofa I take it out and call just one person I need the most right now.

Ryan.

He picks up in the second ring itself.

"Miss me already Babygirl?" he asks in his deep husky voice.

"Ryan..can you come and pick me up?" I whisper my voice hoarse from shouting and crying.

"Are you alright baby?Where are you?" His voice is no longer playful but full of worry and concern.

"Yes. I'll text you the address." I tell him slowly.

"Don'tworry baby...I'm already in the car. I'll be there soon. Text me fast."

I text him the address and start to make my way to the door when Josh stops me.

"I can drive you Home Mayla." he offers.

"No thanks. He will be here any second." I tell him and push past him and out of the house.

Josh still doesn't get the idea that I don't want to see him right now and follows me out.

"Just go away Josh."

"No. I still love you Mayla and I still care about you. Just think about us baby. We were perfect and nothing's changed. We can still be together. We can start fresh." he says pleading me with his eyes.

"I don't think thats possible." I murmer waiting for Ryan to come fast.

And I see his Audi coming near. As soon as he parks in front of us he climbs out of the car and pulls me in his arms while I was too eager to jump into his embrace.

He hugs me tightly and all the shivers and butterflies that I was thinking about earlier comes back.

"Are you okay?" he breaths against my neck simultaneously kissing there.

I try to nod my head which is nearly impossible due to his tight hold. He still gets it and breaks the hug but still holds me against him tightly and looks at Josh.

"Ill see you later" Josh says and hurries back into the house.

I don't look at Ryan and he gets the idea that I don't wanna talk about it.

"I just wanna know one thing. Did he hurt you?" he demands looking straight at me.

"No.Can we please go now?" I speak and he opens the door for me.

"You're staying with me tonight." he says and starts the car.

I don't argue and agrree with him. Even I don't wanna be alone tonight.

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