Loving Myself

Chapter 5

Drake and Archer find me at the park an hour later. Not sure if my family realized I was gone this late or they were giving me time to cool off. I'm trying to perfect the forward flip off the ramp but I'm having a hell of a time perfecting it. I can't land it, not once.

Currently I'm sitting on my ass on the cement after my latest attempt at the forward flip. After landing on my side, I unbuckled myself and sat up. Pulling my helmet off I throw it as I see to pairs of shoes on either side of me before Drake and Archer squat down next to me.

"What are you trying to do?" Archer asks quietly. I'm glad he knows not to ask why I'm at the park with no one else when we always come together.

"Trying to do a forward flip and land it," I say softly all my anger gone. Archer hums at me in response.

"Jace," Drake says so low I can barely hear him. Glancing up at him briefly I see he already knows why I'm really here.

Sighing in defeat my shoulders slouch. "She's such a damn bitch. Why can't she love me for me, I'm her damn son for shits sake," I grit out instantly angry again. "I can't help that I like the same gender, I'm just me trying to be honest with myself, so instead of her loving and accepting me she's punishing me and my siblings," I sob.

Drake pulls me into his arms, hugging me tightly as he stands, walking toward a picnic table to sit with me on his lap. Sobbing into his shoulder, I ask no one in particular, "Why can't she love me but Noelle who is bisexual? I love my sister no matter what so why am I different?"

Drake picks me up to carry me to a picnic table, settling my on his lap chest to chest as I continue to sob into his chest, soaking his shirt even more as he rubs soothing circles onto my back; finally falling asleep after I finished sobbing.

When I woke I was in my bedroom laying under the covers of my bed. Stretching my arms over my head, I grab my braces placing them on my legs before standing and locking them in place and using the temporary crutches to head downstairs. Entering the living room I find Annaliese, Abbi, Archer and Drake all sitting there watching a movie.

"Where's dad, Jacob and Amelia?" I ask sitting next to Drake.

"Went to grab dinner?" Annaliese answers with a small smile, I nod at her before looking at Archer out of the corner of my eye. Drake catches my stare at Archer causing him to smirk evilly at me causing me to groan.

"When are you guys going to moms tomorrow?" I ask Abbi knowing she'll give me more of an honest answer.

"Dad's dropping us off at 10 a.m. and we're coming home Sunday night before dinner." She turns her big blue eyes to me, I sigh knowing what's happening. "Please come? Noelle wants to see you," she tries bribing me.

Shaking my head I tell her firmly trying to not let the big blue puppy eyes bother me. "Nope, go spend time with mom, Noelle and Gavin."

"Then what are you going to do?" she says in her best sweet voice that only works on me.

"Perhaps I can convince dad, Drake and Archer to go do something," I turn to Drake and Archer with a raised eyebrow. "Perhaps go to the ocean and surf?" I ask slightly begging.

Archer and Drake look at each other for a moment then grin at me. "Sure, we'll go tomorrow afternoon, then perhaps Jason will come with us," Drake says with a happy smile.

I nod turning my attention back to my sister with a smile. "See, plans already for tomorrow; nothing to worry about little sister." Abbi and Annaliese give me tentative smiles, thankfully dropping the subject.