My Art Book (Old, Horrible, And Discontinued)

small vent

Why are you here? Actually want to hear my whining...? Okay then... Have fun regretting even knowing me

Okay, first off. I once quoted my dad on social media as a vent (because he's a fucking asshole), and people, despite my clearifications, accuse and blame all those words to be just me and that I'm the asshole. A certain person took screenshots and posted them, putting things in ways to be taken out of context to make the person attacking and harrassing me seem like the victim and make me seem like the cunt. Because of this, more people came attacked and harrassed me, spread more rumors and lies, creating an endless cycle of the torment.

This got the point of wanting to commit suicide.

My wrist has scars.

There's a mark on my throat.

I reopened the scars I once promised myself to try to forget about.

I couldn't, and still can't, eat properly.

I can't preform simple tasks if this shit is on my mind. Some tasks during this time actually makes me want to "try again"

The person celebrated that, and made the comment "I didn't take you for the suicide type. Add that to the pile, lol" and they continued to add to the lies about me and continued growing the attacks and harrassment

I couldn't do shit, friends can't and won't do shit, family doesn't and can't know about this, I'm not "powerful" enough to do shit, and my lover isn't exactly aiding in all this.

Same person was an asshole and broke up with their amazing girlfriend, broke her and pushed her to selfharm, and celebrated that too.

My lover has an "act" to be besties with this person, while me and that person's ex-gf only have eachother to 'truly' comfort eachother because we understand. My lover is planning to "wait for the right moment" to attack and ruin all that the person has worked for.
But...
- lover hasn't truly done anything
- truly seems like besties with person
- has made shared account with this person and seem to adore it
- defends this person
- regularly talks and 'comforts' this person
- never brought up my situation to this person once other then the one time the person brought it up first and lover took their side
- person seems to have a crush on my lover and seems to be trying to be a thing with my lover and yet lover not doing shit

Whenever I point out just how bad all this shit is to my lover, such as them making yet another 'act post' on them "needing" that person, I get treated like the bad guy, like I'm such a fucking bitch about it all

"You don't trust me"
"My family is saying you don't care about me, I'm starting to believe them!"
"Fucking stop"
"I'm trying to fucking help you get that through your head!"
"Just stop"
"It's an act! I don't give a shit about that bitch!"
"I'm only trying to help and you're pushing me away!"
"I love you, but stop being a bitch about this"
"You're over reacting, again!"

I adore my lover, and they act and constantly bring up how they believe I don't care about them... That just aids in all of this....

Just more reason to hate waking up, hate every intake of air, regret having to eat food that now went to waste, to have to be around people, to... Have failed everyone you know and care about and slowly lose the one person you can't live without....