Sorry it's been a while. I've been..... Busy... I explain here we go
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As you left
For a different school
I started to think
"I am a fool".
No one could love me
and I knew it at that
No one can love me
Because I am fat.
I thought about it more
As my mind started to fly
With many possible ways
I could make myself die.
I could take it anymore
With all the humiliation
I need Somthing
Like a vacation.
But not to Fiji
And not to Peru
But somewhere that I could
Take my mind off of you.
As I drifted away to find where I could be free
I couldn't really think I was stuck in rut
But a few years later after very long grief
I found out a way, so I started to cut.
The pain of the blade barely compared
To the pain I had bottled up because I was scared.
Scared of reaction's
Scared to be bold
To tell them
Your love I will forever hold.
For every cut
And every slice
To get away from my feelings
It actually felt nice.
As blood dripped down
I'd watch it fall
But my then my heart pained
At the site of it all.
What have I become
What did I do
I just wanted to get away
And not be reminded of you.
Your amazing eyes
And dazzling smiles
Your lit up personality
It goes on and on for many miles.
