Evanescent

Prologue

Prologue

Hi.

This is the last time I am going to write to you. I hope you know that I’m grateful for everything you’ve done for me, for the escape you have provided me with.

I’m moving back to Australia for a new start. And from there, I am determined to meet new people, get a life, a steady job and to find her. Yeah, the one that I have always been fantasising about. I’m departing tomorrow, on my own. My father is there waiting for me, to pick me up. For the first time in so long, I actually feel a tinge of excitement.

I don’t want you to forget me. Ever.

My name is Ashton Irwin. People call me Ash. I used to be the most depressing shit ever but I worked my way around it. I learnt how to mask my emotions with a huge grin. Ever since then, I was, what you would call, a fake. I never told anyone about my problems. Well, not until Luke came along. We were rivals all the way back in preschool. But we’ve grown up now. We’ve accepted our differences and I’ve figured that what I lack, he provides. Vice versa. It’s like we silently depend on each other.

And then I moved to London with my mum. From here, things went downhill. It’s been 5 long years since I’ve seen Luke’s face. It’s been 5 years since I’ve felt the Australian heat. And I sure as hell miss it.

I am only 17, very soon 18. I don’t know why I feel like this. I don’t know why I hide my real emotions with this facade. I need to find my happiness, so I will go back to where it all began and pick myself up.

“I know there are people who say all of these things don't happen. And there are people who forget what it’s like to be 16 when they turn 17. I know these will all be stories someday. And our pictures will become old photographs. And we'll all become somebody's mom or dad. But right now, these moments are not stories. I can see it. This one moment when you know you're not a sad story. You are alive. And as you stand up and see the lights on buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you are listening to that song on that drive with the people you love most in this world.  And in this moment, I swear... we are infinite.” - Perks of being a wallflower.

There are many reasons why that book is my favourite. I can definitely relate to it.

I want to find my infinite moment.

Don’t miss me too much kay? ;)

-Ash