Colin O'Donoghue Imagines

IMAGINE: Trying to sacrifice your life for Killian's

| IMAGINE for @shadowhunter0218 |

You stare at yourself in your mirror, your face hardening. Today was supposed to be a happy day. It was supposed to be the best day of your life. You glance at the wedding dress that's lying on your bed. You sigh heavily and touch the hilt of your sword at your hip. Instead of getting married to the love of your life, Killian Jones, you're preparing to go out and fight the Black Fairy before she unleashes her curse.

     You pull your hair back into a sturdy bun. You leave your apartment and walk down the street, intending on going to Killian's. You need to tell him that you're fighting the Black Fairy and you're doing it alone. He's not going to like it, but you don't care. This battle isn't his to fight. It's yours. You're not going to have him get in the way. He'll only get hurt...or worse.

     You swallow hard, that thought making you feel sick to your stomach. You can't imagine losing Killian. After all you've been through together, it would be beyond unfair to lose him.

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"Y/N." Killian breathes when he opens his apartment door. He pulls you into his arms and shuts the door behind you with his foot. He holds onto you tightly, his hand cradling the back of your head. You close your eyes and enjoy this moment, knowing it's not going to last very long. Killian and you stay in silence for a few minutes and then you pull back.

     "What are we going to do?" He asks worriedly.

     "We can't continue with our wedding, Killian. Not with the Black Fairy running around loose."

     From the look on his face, he already knows what you're going to say next.

     "Y/N-"

      Wait, please." You say softly, putting a hand on his chest, stopping him. He does and his eyes fill with sadness. It's like a knife to your heart.

     "I have to fight her, Killian." You whisper helplessly. His jaw clenches. "She's going to keep terrorizing us and I'm sick of it—I'm sick of her. We need to get rid of her. I need...I need to kill her."

      Killian steps towards you and puts his hand on your shoulder. "Then let me help you, Y/N. We can defeat her together. We can defeat her as a team."

     You say nothing. You just stare at him. His eyes widen slightly as they light up with realization.

     "No." He whispers, shaking his head slightly and taking a step away from you. "You-you don't want me to come. You want to fight her alone." He says in horror.
  
     "Killian, I have to." You insist as you take a step towards him. He turns away from you. "I can't-" You start to say, grabbing his arm.

     "No!" He whirls around angrily. You shut your mouth and look at him. His eyes, clouded with anger, fill with tears. "We are a team, Y/N. We're partners-in-crime. And yet when we have to fight one of the most powerful fairies in all of the lands, you want to do it by yourself. You're breaking the team apart." He says, his voice hurt.

      Your eyes pool with tears and you try to. wipe them away. They don't relent. "I can't-I can't lose you, Killian." You whisper hoarsely.

     "And you think I could handle losing you?" He questions you, his eyebrows furrowed. You run a hand through your hair and sigh. He puts his hand and hook on your upper arms. "I love you, Y/N. More than anyone. More than anything. If you think for one second that I could bounce back from losing you, you're wrong. You don't understand me as well as I thought you did." He says tightly.

     "Killian, I never said you would bounce back." You whisper. You collapse against him and he wraps his arms around you, burying his face in your hair.