The Novel

SUCCESS IS NOT PERMANENT

Success at the first step doesn't mean all the steps were solid bricks few may be hard rock few may crumble as dry sand. With same enthusiastic, I worked two back to back romantic novels but both become a huge failure. I got way too much negative comments; I went into arguments with readers at the cross word. My blog was filled with abstract message and comments. I blamed the editor for reassigning my story but everything came to a narrow point they disapproved my contract and I'm no more writer for my publishing company. I felt lost like a lonely cub lost his family.

Seeing failure at a younger age is nothing, I know there is a lot to come and I can rectify everything if I paid attention and take some time but I'm not a single guy to do that I have a family and recently Sindhu gave birth to an adorable little girl. They both become my burden for my carrier. I personally love them but professionally hate them. Sindhu advised few times to take a break and concentrate on some other work because her single income isn't enough for three people.

The moment I thought they both would be a burden for my carried I become a complete selfish who never cared about others even the loved ones. Life was hard at these times I know I should stop writing and take a break to work somewhere for a solid income so I can maintain my family circle without a problem. Instead, I determined to concentrate on my writing. I stayed awake all night and put all my thoughts and effort to write a brilliant novel and simultaneously I worked on a collaboration with another writer and we both worked on a book but nothing worked out all my new shook me with failure. Even the first copy remained unsold. Not even a single publishing company came front to publish my work. I deliberately spent my entire wife's earning over my personal work, even I put her starve some days but somehow she managed by working over duty. My rage for success never stopped and never worked out.

My back to back work without any gap amazed whole writing world but everything ended up as a joke. I read articles about myself over the internet that curse me to the core. "The author is capable to make just Guinness record for back to back novels" and I finally earned the name "Looser writer who never gives up in loosing". A man can never accept this statement I felt humiliated and I have something to change it but I never got a chance to prove myself due to my past. My draft came to a straight line where I felt my writing carrier was dead completely. I am a writer and I cannot give up. My wife literally begged to stop writing for sometimes she cried, begged even shouted but nothing stopped me. I decided to prove myself in this field. I need to fix this so I decided to take one last step to prove myself "one last step".