4 Chances

Chapter 5

21/06/2783 Chapter 5

At the beginning of the day. It's the second day on the ship going to Trappist.

- "Jackson did you even sleep?" Gunner asked.

- "Shhh there is no time I have to try to get contact with the other ships." I said.

- "Jackson just get some rest I will continue your artwork that is going on here in OUR room." Gunner said trying to cheer me up.

I look at him and I suddenly feel how tired I am. But I have to go on I can't imagine what the rest is going through.

- "No I need to do this Gunner."

- "Jackson just at least let me help."

He can help I can't do this alone. But he cannot mess things up.

- "Okay sure you can help. Uhm so I don't know how I can connect to our communication radios.

- "Wait are you trying to hack into them so only you can communicate with the others? Jackson what the hell has gotten into you. You were always a nice person and now you've become this wreck."

- "You don't even know me that long!" I said mad.

- "Yes I do Jackson. I been in love with you for the past 2 years!"

- "What?" I said.

I couldn't believe he was in love with me. What?

- "Yes I finally said it out loud and you know what I hated that you treat me like shit! I try to help you but you don't even notice! I try to make you happy but it's like you break everything that makes you happy and for what?! Why the hell is this all so important for you! We all have lost friends but we all got over it and try to get new friends instead, you're sitting here with self pity!"

It feels like I can see again. Everything he said was true.

- "I can't lose them I can't loose the people again. I said calmly with watery eyes."

- "Just tell me what bothers you just let everything out. You will feel better afterwards."

For a moment I hesitate but I had to let the anger and the loss out.

- "When I was really young my mom got another child. And well you know that wasn't aloud on earth so the government killed my mother and I don't know what happened to my sister but I never saw them again. My dad was almost never home I was all alone. From that moment on I didn't want to let anything or anyone in. When my dad brought me to the Lai I met this gorgeous girl Skylar. I think I let her in the moment I saw her. I promised my self I would never let her go or let anything happen to her. And now I lost her and I just don't know what to do." I feel a huge weight coming of me.

It did feel good to let go of all the things that bother me. But I still have to hold on some tears.

- "Jackson I am so sorry I didn't know you had to go through all that shit."

- "It's okay I feel a little better now I think I am going to take a nap."

I got in my bed put myself under the straps and went to sleep.

6 hours later.

I wake up feeling like a whole new person.

- "What time is it?" I asked.

- "O hey your awake it's six pm I was just about to get some food. Want to come?"

- "Sure. I am sorry I just want to tell you I am flattered that you uh like me but you know..." I stammered.