I'm too blind (seulrene)

Broken? /2/

"So.. how's life seulgi? Your school? Your relationship??" Jennie said , "nothing changes too much unnie.. haha" i said to her , i just faked my laugh when i'm thinking abt my relationship.. is it even called relationship? Ugh.
"So unnie... how's jiyong oppa?" I said to jennie , "Oh abt that.. we broke up actually, he's married right now.. with chaerin. My bestfriend" she said in a poker face , "sorry for ask" "u okay unnie? Chaerin unnie? How abt dara unnie?" I ask to her , " yes I'm totally okay.. idc abt him anymore ... and abt dara.. she is okay tho" she said while showing her gummy smile. Oh my.. jennie unnie why are you so cute? I thought but suddenly my mind full of irene face.. wtf? "Ooh.. someone just fell in love AGAIN right now" jungyeon said as she showing her annoying face to me .. "what's?" I said as I glared at her. "Nothing.. just nothing." She said as she sit beside jennie.

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I can't sleep... it's just 9 and i can't sleep , weird. Usually i'll get sleep easily.. maybe bcs i thinking about irene that much? Ugh.. should i go to her house? Or stay? I keep thinking that. Better i take jungyeon advice or nah?
I decided goes to irene house , I can't stayin like this all night.. like a idiots just thinking about irene.
I take my black hoodie as i walk out from my room , i take a quiet step bcs i don't want jungyeon know. "Where do u think you'll going?" Someone say that and then i turn back , oh.. it's jennie. "Find some air unnie, ah and please don't tell jungyeon okay?" I said to her as she's just giggling , "okay okay , be careful seulgi" she said and she's heading back to the guest room.

Woah.. so cold... I thought, i walk in a dark street heading to irene house.
As i arrive , I don't want irene knew that i'm here .. so i climb the tree that besides irene room.
"Ah" wtf is that?? I thought... "yes" a girl said in husky voice.. eh? What is that? I thought.. rightnow i'm starting worried.. as i peeking from the tree I saw.. irene? Huh? With a guy? Wtf they're doing! I don't want to see more.. my blood start boiling as i see that boy kissin irene neck.
Then the wind it's too strong that makes me fall from the tree.. what's?? How could this happen ?? But suddenly there's a voice , "who is that baby?" A guy voices ask , "I don't know.. eh??! Maybe my parents ?!" A girl said that.. yes i'm sure the guy and the girl it's irene with her fuck boy.

I'm weird.. i know.. why am i not crying to see them. Maybe i just get used to it ? I didn't know.. it's complicated. Right now , my heart to her just go away , just like that... I don't know if i still love her or not?
My mind tell me to leave.. but my heart tell me to stay...
"Bae Joohyun , what did u do to me?" I said to my self as i heading back to my home.