My mind wanders a lot. Mostly to places people would think are unhealthy, but they help me cope. I often find myself in the spinning loop of curiosity of what if I were no longer here. Would anyone miss me. . . probably not, but who knows? They would put you in a hospital for asking such a question in the world of today. They say you shouldn't think about things like that, but sometimes you just can't help but wonder why does it matter that I am here?