I hate to hide.
To hide that I love you.
That I think of you.
That I miss you.
I hate to hide my feelings.
My feelings for you.
Seeing you makes me sick.
Not because I hate to see you.
Because I want you so bad.
Want you to be mine.
But then I realize.
I cant have you.
Every time.
When I think of you.
I search for funny pictures.
Funny Videos.
Stuff you would like.
But I never send it to you.
Im scared.
Scared that I annoy you.
Scared that you wont answer.
So I never text first.
I would love to send you things.
Things that would make you laugh.
Because I love your smile.
Love your laugh.
It lights up the darkest room.
The darkest day.
My darkest mood.
It protects me.
From my demons.
My depression.
Myself.
