EMISON: Come Back To Me

Never Coming Home

Alison's POV:

           "How is she, is she alright? Can I see her?" I asked the doctor with a shaky but determined voice. "Your name miss?".."Alison.. Listen doctor, Emily is my best friend and I need to know that she is going to be alright!" Panic overwhelms me as I notice the doctors facial expression turn apologetic and sorrowful. "I'm very sorry Alison, we did everything we could. Your friend seems to have overdosed on a medication called Neurontin, otherwise known as gabapentin, a drug used to prevent seizures. However, that isn't what we believe to be the cause of death, since more powerful drugs like heroin and cocaine also were detected in her toxicology reports. She did not show signs of being an avid user so it is likely that the capsules she consumed were laced with these drugs. However, we cant say for sure until the autopsy results come back." The doctor then placed a reassuring hand on my shoulder and gave me an apologetic look before walking away.

          The whole time the doctor was talking my brain was trying to play catch up. Almost as if it refused to believe any of the words that were coming out of that lady's mouth. Then it hit me... dead,...my Emmy is DEAD and she is never coming home.. In that moment of cruel realization my whole world fell out from underneath me and my body fell to the floor. This can not be happening, Where in the hell did she even get seizure medication. I mean, I have only been gone two fucking years. There is no way that she developed epilepsy in two years and she didn't have it before. Why am I the only one here for her in this God forsaken place? Jesus, She is only seventeen! Where in the hell are her parents? Shit.. her parents... what am I supposed to tell her parents? "Hey I went to visit your daughter and found her broken and now she's dead?" smooth Ali.. real fucking smooth. Why in the hell were they not there to protect their daughter in the first place?! "I swear to you Em, If it is the last thing I do I am going to find out who hurt you." I think out loud.

          This is just all too much, I cant do this. I just got her back, only I never had a chance to really get her. WHY?! I give the police my statement before exiting the hospital. I hail a cab back to Rosewood. The house is empty when I get home and that is when I remember dad saying that he was going to be gone through the first part of next week. Still in utter disbelief of the events that took place this evening I decide to lie down and try to get some rest. As soon as I walk into my bedroom I freeze for a moment as a flashback to the summer of our seventh grade year hits me as clear as if I were watching a movie.

~Flashback~
          "Come on Ali, you know that I only like the red gummy bears..." Emily pouts as she swings herself around the bedpost in a circular motion before falling flat on her back into the mattress. Ali giggles menacingly to herself because while Emily was in the bathroom she had actually hidden all of the red gummy bears under the pillow that Emily was now laying on. "I can't help it that they are my favorite to Em." Ali replies with a shrug and throws herself on the bed next to Emily. "After all, we are best friends, so naturally we have very much in common." Ali says with a sly grin, now laying on her belly, propping up her upper body on her elbows. Emily just throws her arms up in defeat and sighs, "fine.. but only because we are best friends and I love you... but next time, all of the red ones in the bag are mine, got it?" "Deal, now close your eyes, I have a surprise for you." Ali says with a serious tone. Emily closes her eyes as Ali sneaks a red gummy bear from under the pillow and pops it into Emily's mouth. Emily's eyes widen and she sits up and looks at Ali, knowing she had just reached under the pillow and slipped a red gummy bear in her mouth. "NO WAY!" Emily shrieks with excitement and lifts up the pillow. Alison bites her bottom lip to hold back a laugh and nods. Emily jumps across the bed and collapses on top of Alison,flipping her over and smothering her in tight hugs and forehead kisses, "I knew you loved me! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU I ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOU!!" Alison giggles uncontrollably underneath Emily for a minute and then stops, that was the moment she had fallen for Emily Fields and it scared the shit out of her. She looked deep into Emily's eyes and then whispered, "I love you too, Em."
~End Of Flashback~

          Tears run like rivers down my cheek as I recall the exact moment that I realized I had fallen for my best friend. That's it, there is no more strength left in my body at all today. I sit down on the bed and pull my knees into my chest sobbing uncontrollably. In the back of my mind I am praying that this is all just a horrible nightmare. She's not really gone... she's not gone. I tell myself that I am going to wake up tomorrow and go visit Em and she will be just fine. None of this is real.. Right? It simply can't be. It wasn't supposed to be this way. It was never supposed to be this way.. Finally my thoughts stop racing and I drift off to sleep.

          I have no more than just closed my eyes when suddenly I find myself back in Emily's house. Only this time it's different... Darker. The photos that hung on the walls before were now crooked and cracked. Some of them have fallen to the floor and there is broken glass everywhere. The entire house is illuminated by a strange, blue glow and it is freezing inside. I walk into the living room where I found Emily hours earlier and I am so relieved when I see that the glass coffee table is completely in tact. Maybe Em really is ok and it was all just a bad dream after all. I walk over to the stairs and I start to hear someone crying and saying the word no over and over again. I immediately recognize the voice as Emily's. Her voice almost sounds like it is echoing repeatedly through the entire house. I need to help her. She is in her room, I just know it, I don't know how I know, but I do. I start to run up the stairs but I trip on the third step. That is when I realize that almost every floorboard on the staircase is busted or has a hole in it. This can not be safe at all for her, I have to get her out of here. I am sure that dad wouldn't mind her staying with us for as long as she needs. Where the hell are her mom and dad? I shake my head and continue up the steps swiftly yet much more cautiously. Finally I have reached Emily's room, but as soon as I get in front of the door, she stops crying. 

          I jump back a little in surprise as I hear her soft sweet voice speak. "H-hello? Is s-someone there?" She sounds so afraid... so broken. I fly through the door, "Em?" I say as I rush over to her. I Throw my arms around her and hug her as best as I can without hurting her. She looks so fragile and her skin is so cold. "Ali?" she asks as if she is not convinced that it is really me. "Yes! Yes its me Em. Its alright now. It's all going to be alright. I've got you." I say as I begin to rock her back and forth in my arms protectively. We are both in tears at this point and I hear her say, "I love you Ali." I smile, but I don't say it back. After everything, those words just are not enough. Instead I lean forward and lightly brush my nose with hers while looking into her eyes for permission. She nods gently and closes her eyes as our lips meet for the very first time in a fiery passion moving perfectly in sync with each other. There are fireworks going off through my entire body and suddenly everything around us turns from a dim, blue glow to complete color. Her skin becomes warm to the touch as we pull away from each other. slowly. I bring my gaze back to her beautiful brown eyes letting her know that I have never been more sure about anything in my life and tell her, "I love you too Em. No. No, I do not just love you, I am madly in love with you and I would give anything to have you safe with me every day for the rest of my life. I need you like the sky needs the sunshine. I cant lose you.".."I wish we could stay in this moment forever." she says, but her voice begins to fade out.

*BEEP* *BEEP* *BEEP* *BEEP*

          I hear the sound of my alarm so I reach my arm over and shut that damn thing off. "EMILY!" I scream as I shoot up out of the bed. no no no no no. NO!