EMISON: Come Back To Me

What The...?

Emily's POV:

          My eyes flicker open and I realize that I am in my bedroom. Damn it is cold in here. Something is different about this place. The last thing I can remember making my way downstairs to watch tv. So what am I doing in my room? I mentally slap myself.. Great Emily, just great. You knew that you shouldn't have taken so many of those pills and you did it anyway. Maybe instead of making yourself a Guinea pig, you should have tried a little harder to find out what they were, or better yet, where they came from for that matter. Now look at you, your whole house is trashed, the furnace is probably out, and there is a weird blue glow illumining the room. Wait... blue glow? what the? I step out of my bedroom, into the hallway and notice that the entire house is not the way it was this morning. Everything is messed up and broken. It's almost as if someone came in and just started smashing stuff and left. But surely I would have woken up if someone broke in, right? UGH! I swear that if there is one thing I am good at, It is being a fuck up. That's probably the whole reason that I ended up alone in the first place. 

          I sit down on the couch in the living room and prop my feet up on the coffee table. I close my eyes trying to process everything that took place today. Maybe if I try really hard, I will be able to recall something about what happened during my blackout. I am snapped out of my thoughts when I hear a faint echo of what sounds like a female voice calling my name. I look out the window but there is no one there and it is completely dark outside, aside from a flickering street lamp. I check the clock to see what time it is but the hands have stopped moving. Hm, the batteries must be dead.. I listen more closely to the female voice, this time it sounds closer and much more audible. "It's going to be alright Emmy, you are going to be ok, you have to be ok." I know that voice from somewhere. It sounds just like.. like Ali. Panic courses through my veins I yell, "ALI!? ALI!! ALI CAN YOU HEAR ME!? I'M RIGHT HERE ALI, I'M OK! WHERE ARE YOU?" Something must be wrong, very wrong. Ali lives in Georgia. there is no way she could be close enough to my house for me to hear her. I hear her... but where is she, why can't I see her? I hope she is alright. Did she come to see me and something happened to her? Why is she telling me its going to be alright? I am just fine. She is the only good thing left in my life, I just don't know if i could go on if something happened to her. Its our memories and my love for her that keeps me going. I begin to search the entire house for Ali and when I don't find her I decide to go outside. Maybe that's why her voice sounded so distant. Maybe she is outside somewhere and needs my help. I search every street surrounding my house but still no sign of Ali. 

          I start to wonder if maybe I am just having residual effects of the pills I took earlier. I mean I lost a whole lot of time, so it seems plausible that I could be having mild hallucinations, right? In any case the only things that I know for sure right now are that Ali isn't anywhere around, its freezing, and this strange blue glow is everywhere. At first I thought that it was a blue moon or something. But I can't even find the moon so it can't be.  I make my way back home and up to my room. Dad is going to kill me if he ever sees this house. He hasn't laid eyes on it or me in two fucking years but it is just my luck that he would pop in for a visit when its completely trashed like this. I have to say though, looking around i can't help but notice that it is cold, broken, and lonely in here.. i probably would have never seen it before but now it sort of reflects me in a way, maybe it always has...

          When I enter my room I hear long beep from what sounds like some sort of medical machine. The noise gets louder and louder to the point where it hurts my ears. I almost cant take it but before I have time to react i hear, "CLEAR!" and I am thrown against my bedroom wall. I go to stand up bu-"CLEAR!" and I am thrown right back down again. My body goes completely numb and i am not even cold anymore. Finally all of the pieces fall into place and I realize that something must have gone terribly wrong. Is this what it feels like to be... dead? This can not be happening I can't be dead... I can't be.. can i? 

          Everything is just happening so fast that I can't even take it all in. Ali was with me, that's why I heard her, she was with me but she wasn't.. she couldn't see me or hear me. I never even got to say goodbye. Or hello again for that matter. GOD EMILY! HOW COULD YOU BE SO STUPID?! They say hindsight is 20/20 but they left out the part where it also happens to be a bitch. 

          I sit on the floor, against the wall and cradle my knees into my chest.."no, no, no, no, no this can't be happening. Not now, i didn't mean it, NO!" I cry uncontrollably. Mixed feelings of fear, anger, and regret flow through me and the tears just keep coming. Suddenly I hear something outside my door and I have to admit that I have never been more scared or confused than i am right at this very moment. "H-hello? Is s-someone there?" i stutter out, hoping that who.. or what ever that is doesn't hear the fear in my voice. Because i mean, come on, I just concluded that I'm probably dead and the odds of whatever that is outside being friendly are probably slim to none.

          I am snapped out of my thoughts when my bedroom door bursts open and I swear I see an angel walk through it and rush over to where I am. "Em?" she says to me as she wraps her arms around me and pulls me into a hug. But if I'm dead... no.. no there is no way Ali is actually here with me right now. This has to be some sort of trick. "Ali?" I question, not completely trusting my own voice and not at all convinced that this is really her. She smiles widely and pulls me into a loving embrace, "Yes! Yes its me Em. It's alright now. It's all going to be alright. I've got you." she says to me with tears streaming down her cheeks, cradling me as if she never wanted to let me go.

          Once I realize that it really is my Ali I can not help but let the tears fall once again. She found me. Not even death can keep us apart. Our love really is real and if this doesn't prove that then i don't know what does. It's now or never, she has to know that i love her, that I am in love with her and that I always have been. "I love you Ali.." I say to her as I look up into those perfect ocean blue eyes that never fail to captivate me. But she doesn't respond. She just stairs back at me intently with a passion in her eyes that i have never seen before. She flickers her eyes to my lips as she brushes her nose with mine then looks back into my eyes as if to ask permission. I nod and lean in, she crashes her lips into mine and for a moment the whole world seems to spin backwards, everything in time and space standing completely still. But then something happens.. i actually start to feel the kiss, our lips are moving in perfect sync and it just feels so right. There are a billion butterflies swimming around in the pit of my stomach and everything in the room turns to full color. slide my thumb across her cheek and run my fingers through her beautiful blonde hair and smile into the kiss as we slowly pull away from each other because I realize something... I can feel again. Her eyes meet mine once more and I just know it is not the end. I can feel it.. "I love you too Em. No. no I am madly in love with you and I would do anything to have you safe with me every day for the rest of my life. I need you like the sky needs the sunshine. I can't lose you." I want so bad to tell her that she will never lose me and that i belong to her and only her. However her form is slowly fading and I can feel our time together being cut short. "I wish we could stay in this moment forever." I say to her, in all honesty, right before she fades away completely.

          I figured that once she was gone, everything would slowly go back to the way it was before she came but it hasn't. She did something to me, to this whole place. There is hope for us I can feel it. I can feel things that I didn't even know were possible and it is all because of her. She met me more than half way, now its my turn. I will figure out how to get back to her and soon I will figure out how to make it permanent. Time is all i need and luckily, time just so happens to be something I have plenty of. I wont give up on us. I'm coming home to you Ali. I promise...