Time To Dance

Mines

*Trigger Warning*

Ella's POV ~

Ryan woke me up in the middle of the night with a loud sneeze. I tried reaching for my phone, but stopping when Ryan's arm curled tighter around me. Crap. I carefully loosened his arm and slipped out of bed.

I slowly walked to the bathroom trying not to make the wood creak. I left the bathroom door slightly cracked open, and opened the mirror cabinet. There it was,

My blade..

The stress and anxiety got to me. I grabbed it with two fingers, and gently set it on the counter. I then grabbed some toilet paper and Neosporin for the after math. Again, I took the blade between two fingers and dragged it against my skin. Before ending it and starting a new one the thought "Ryan doesn't like you. Nothing he's saying is true since your the complete opposite." Came to my mind. That made me feel worse than I already felt. It also made a tear slide down my cheek.

Ryan's POV ~

I woke up hearing soft coo's coming from somewhere. I turned see if Ella was there, but the bed was empty except for me in it. I sat up looking around the room until my eyes landed on the light peaking through the bathroom door. I got up and walked over to see it was cracked. I peeked to see Ella sitting on the counter with a blade in her hand.

I pushed the bathroom door open which startled her making the blade fall out of her hand. "Ella! The fuck are you thinking!" I said, my voice raised. "Y-you wouldn't c-care." She said, her face falling into her hands while she sobbed. I grabbed her arm to see she had made 4 fresh cuts on her arm. I took my other hand and lifted her face up to look into her eyes. "Don't you ever t-think", I said my voice cracking,"that I wouldn't care. Or that I don't care about you. Because I do Ella, I really really do."

More tears came running down her face. "I'm sorry.." she said. I rubbed her shoulder." Don't be, it's okay, here rinse your arm." I said taking her hand so I could help her get off of the counter. She jumped off , with her other hand sprinkled water on the cuts.

After all of that was situated I went into the kitchen to get her some water. I couldn't find any bottle of waters, so I poured her a glass. I went back to see her on the bed criss cross applesauce her face in her hands. "Hey", I said softly trying not to startle her,"I got you some water." She looked up with red eyes, and her cheeks puffy. She smiled, "thank you."

I sat next to her and she took the water from my hands and took a sip. "Can I ask you something?" I asked. She looked into my eyes as a response. "W-why would you do that to yourself? And don't you have a performance today?" I said. She looked off to the side as if she didn't want to answer.

"I let everything g-get to me. The whole situation with my dad, and thinking that you don't care. Your here with me for a reason but not a good one. I-I don't know." She said with a sigh. "And I know I'll cover it with makeup like I always do.." she said.

I opened my mouth to try and respond but nothing came out. I processed the words that came out of her mouth over and over again in my head. I finally came up with something to say.

"Ella I know today's been stressful but I promise you it'll get better," I said grabbing her hand and rubbing it with my thumb, "but I don't know why you would think that. I'm here with you because I care about you. I'm also here because maybe I like you Ella, more than a friend though.."

Ella stayed quiet looking down. I hope she feels the same..

Ella's POV ~

I didn't know how to respond. So as a person who doesn't know how to handle these situations I stayed quiet. Ryan let go of my hand to put both of his in his lap. I finally plucked up the courage to say something.

"If we're being honest with each other right now", I paused, "ilikeyouryan." I said quickly. He looked at me with his eyebrows furrowed. "What?" He said. "I like you Ryan.." I said looking into his brown eyes. I saw a grin form on his face and my heart stopped. "Really?" He asked. "yeah." I replied quietly.

Next thing I knew, Ryan pulled me into a hug squeezing me tight. I hugged him back. He pulled away looking right into my eyes and said, " Ella you don't know how happy I am to know you feel the same way." I felt as if I was on cloud 9. Being here with Ryan and knowing he feels that way is just flat out amazing.

"Same here." I replied. He took his hands and cupped my face. Last time this happened he kissed me, and that was a-ma-zing. Instead he smiled and said, " let's go to bed. We have a long day ahead of us." I looked at my phone to see what time it was.

4:58. We still had 3 hours to sleep until I had to get up and get ready for my performance. "Sounds good." I said smiling.

We crawled under the blankets making ourselves comfortable. Ryan put his arm around me like we were before and nuzzled his face into my hair. "Hey Ryan.." I asked. "Yeah?" He replied, but it sounded muffled since it was through my hair. "If you don't mind me asking..", I was hesitant but went on, "what are we?" I asked quietly. He moved his head to look at me. He then said,

"I mean would you mind if I called you mines?"