Field day

Filed day!

It was filed day! I was really dreading this day believe it or not but it was actually kinda fun so far. "Ok everyone go sit on the bleachers or something I don't care just get off the field right now " The teacher said. Me and Trent have been ACTUALLY TALKING so we sat together and all day people have been asking if we got back together then Emily asked (she is one of my friends)"hey are you guys dating now?" "no we're just friends" I said and then I look at Trent he is just looking at Emily so I turned around and I swear he looked at me but I didn't say anything. "then why are you holding hands" me and Trent both look down at are hands we- we're  holding each other's hand I couldn't believe it we looked up at each other and unraveled our hands. "pshhh we're not holding hands what are you talking about" I say "yeah pshh" Trent goes along with me. "whatever weirdos" Emily said Trent looked away, I didn't. me and  Emily talked about the races and how we were too fat and stuff while we did that Trent talked to his best friend Adam. "follow me Low" he Said, so I did. "where are we going?"I asked, "behind the concessions." I don't know why but I wasn't worried that we would get in trouble or anything so that why I just went I guess. we were about half way there and then he stoped and looked at Adam, Adam gave a thumbs up and went to the teachers to distract them I was obviously clueless of what we were about to do. Ok we were at the place behind the concessions like he told me I leaned up against the wall Low *sigh* do you like me. I FROZE  a-a... I-umm  *sigh* at that point I was getting on my own nerves I have been hiding this for way too long, yes I said yes I do like yo- h-he kissed me and I kissed him back that was the best  5 seconds of my life. Then we here Adam say no don't take attendance me and Trent looked at each other and ran we got to the bleachers "Trent" the teacher called yes he said the teacher rolled her eyes next time say here. Yes mam. Trent said "Low"Here! "Lilly" here! After attendance  everyone went to lunch  and of course we sat together we were holding hands and this time we knew we were. Bella was passing by and saw us holding hands are you two dating now? Bella said in a jealous voice. "we are not dating!" Trent said then why are you holding hands? were not what are you talking about I said, Trent And I stopped holding hands what whatever she said and sat in front of us and we held hands under the table and I can't believe she didn't see but whatever I left Trent and Bella so they could talk so I wouldn't  be in the middle of something! Trent is basically her closest friend and I mean sometimes it does kinda make me jealous but it's ok so I let them be. I went to the end of the table where no one ever sets I needed to catch up on Instagram anyway. my best friend Jessica was trying to talk to Leo so I didn't sit over there but Instagram though Instagram. After that we went to Mrs.Myers room I talked to him a little bit but it was just boring random stuff but I also talked to Jessica and fangirled about me and Trent and we talked about her boyfriend too you know Leo literally the most popular person in school but most of all we talked about a sleeeepoverrrrr one of my Specialties! it was not long since her birthday had passed we thought maybe we could go to the movies and just slide on in sleepover that's basically what we always do but it basically always works right?
                     (The next day)
It was the next day of course me and Jessica ran up to each other and hugged sooo did you ask your mom? Jessica asked,of course I did! well what did she say?! I hate to be the bear of bad news but she said ... YESSS!! We can watch "truth or dare" and don't forget your clothes this time I said laughing *Sigh*okay she said laughing I saw Trent I was going to run up to him but Bella was crying I wanted to know what was wrong but I don't like when people crowd around me whenever I'm crying or sad I just like to be alone or with someone that's really close to me or something so I left them as much as I wanted to go up to them I passed them and went to the bath room instead. After bella left I walked up to Trent what was wrong with her I asked? nothing babe Trent said, Whatever then. I said, and I get my earbuds and blast panic! at the disco " Death of the Bachelor" because that kinda got on my nerves that he didn't tell me. Later when our classes were separated again. I went to Bella since we were in the same class and my assigned seat was next to her. sooo what were you and Trent talking about in the hallway? ( I said politely.) Nothing! she snapped. Ok I said Quietly and walked away. I don't know how she felt after that but it kinda hurt my feelings. The reason why it hurt the most is that we are friends and I acted like nothing happened but that's over now thank goodness. That night I had trouble sleeping I did the night before that too of course I was excited because he kissed me, my first real kiss the one that actually meant something to me I-I love him he means so much to me I don't ever want to leave him or give up on him but I don't deserve Him. He likes some one else anyways he likes my best friend I just learned that today because she found out and told me Daisy is so pretty and nice see I don't deserve her either she doesn't like him though and I'm kinda glad because I don't want anything to happen between me and My best friend and she is actually a good friend and she would never do anything to upset someone. Also his birthday is not far away we're finally out of school too, thank goodness!!! His party is at the rink but, oh no what should I wear  omg!! I have nothing to wear omg I can't do this, wait Jessica is coming over! she is just alive saver sometimes. I quit worrying and a few minutes later I fell asleep. The next morning I woke up and I was really happy because I am kinda in a better part with Trent and just the thought of him just makes me sooo helpless I really do like him and I'm trying to be Serious right now but I'm just so helpless I tried texting him but he didn't answer a few more minutes I texted him again he still didn't answer and I even texted him one more time and as you expected no answer what if he hates me now what if he isn't talking to me because I'm ugly and not as popular as the other girls he likes? the next day I texted him "Hey" a few minutes later while I was watching youtube he answered me he said "sorry I didn't have my phone" I'm like Whatever it kinda hurt my feelings so I text back "thank goodness I kinda got mad" he texts back and says "why" I say "well I thought there was something wrong with me" and he says "why would you think that"and then I say"well you have barely talk to me since school has gotten out" then guess what he said "well it's not like we are dating" It took me a minute to answer because I didn't know what to say it was kinda shocking but I replied with "but we can still be friends?"he says "I know" I didn't reply til he says I'm invited to his birthday and I say "I know".Me and my family went out to eat we went to TacoBell after that we went to Books.a.Million I finally got the fourth book to my favorite series that's kinda cool. We went back home I was bored and just looking at my phone and Jessica texts me and she said Riverdale season2 has finally came Out I needed a distraction from life anyway I was so glad I thanked Jessica and started watching it. It was amazing! A couple days later. I haven't watched it all but I'm close because I'm on EP19 and it goes to 22 at that time it was Dark and I needed to go to sleep so I went to bed and as always I can't go to sleep I thought and thought about the kiss and before I went to sleep I had a idea maybe that kiss meant nothing to him and it was just a small kiss nothing else that made me sad and also I go the sleep crying I know I sound like a baby but it is the truth I go to sleep worrying about what some one thinks well he was right we are not dating. I wish I was petty like Bella or Daisy *sigh* I go up to the mirror I fix my hair and say you will be pretty one day and that day is most likely not anytime soon. I go back to bed and go to sleep wake up and look like a raccoon I put makeup on but also just enough to cover most of the ugliness so yeah tons of makeup. I look at the clock and it's 3:10a͟m͟ wow I woke up at about 3 whatever I eat breakfast I go back to my room and lay down for a few more minutes and fall back asleep the next thing I know Lilly is slapping me awake" get up you lazy bum "I look at the clock it is 7:00 " low WaKe uP"Lilly said, whaaaaat! I said,"will you play the Xbox with me" No! I said and rolled out of bed then went to the kitchen and of course ate more well two more days till it was the sleepover with Jessica *sigh* well at least it was just two more days what could possibly happen so how about some riverdale umm never mind I'll watch that tonight I like watching it in the dark  it's way better and kinda scarier that way. We stayed at the house till about 1:00 then we went to Walmart and got groceries because I ate the last of the cereal but it was also because we just needed some groceries like strawberries or milk so just the regular stuff and I found a nice book it's called "The friendship bracelet"it's really cool and relates to my life like it's based on a true story that's always cool so we got that too we went back home put up all the groceries and I put on music and jumped on the trampoline I played "satisfied"a song from the Hamilton musical and my favorite part is about to come up ("so so so This is what it feels like to match wits someone at your level what the (heck)is a catch it's the feeling the freedom the seeing the light it's Ben Franklin with a key and a kite you see it right...conversation lasted 2 minutes maybe 3 minutes every thing we said in totally agreement it's a dream and a bit of a dance a bit of a posture it's a bit of a stance he's a bit of a flirt but I'mma give it a chance I asked about his family did you see his answer his hands started fidgeting he looked askance he's penniless he's flying by the seat of his pants")that was the fastest part of the song. I can sing the whole song no exaggeration after that song it was "guns and ships"also part of the Hamilton musical so I jumped and sung to that too then I went inside to cool down so I got a Pepsi and went to my room turn the ceiling fan on because it was burning up out there and turn on Netflix The walking dead I watch about 3 episodes and got bored so I went to the pantry and got a snack cake and went back to my room I took a huge bite of the cake and started choking on it then I here a ding! It was my phone and of course was Trent I got my drink and manage to stop choking  well that was awkward I said to my self I got my phone to see what he had to say
Trent:what you doing
(he knows I'm obsessed with Riverdale and stuff)
me: nothing just obsessing over Riverdale.
Trent : of course you are.
me: lol
me:so what did you really want to talk About?
Trent:fine I just wanted to ask you something
me:what?
Trent: Low do you have a bf.
me: what!!!
Trent:you know a boyfriend
me:I know what it means just why would you ask that question?
Trent: just answer the question. me:okayy I don't.
Trent: ok good
me:good?! It should be bad I don't have a bf Ugh.
Trent:😂😂
me:😅😂
Low!! My mom yelled. yes!! I yelled back. Jessica's mom just texted me and said she had to Watch her sister so she can't come sleepover sorry okay I said and I pretty much expected this she always has to watch her sister. Well tomorrow is his birthday 6:00 I go take a nice Quick shower, turn on Netflix lay in bed so what do I watch this time then stranger things shows up welp I'm watching that then I turn on the last episode (which I already watched a Thousand times)...a few moments later... tears in my eyes fall noooo why will you not dance with Dustin I would literally do that any day dude he is just so cutee...oh here comes Nancy. would you like to dance. Aaaaaaahhh Nancy you are sooo nice you have such a good heart awwww aaaaaaahhh so cute....a few moments later ....aaaaaaahhh THEY KISSED THEY KISSED aaaaaahhh.....a few moments later ..... *mom walks in my room*Low go to sleep it is 1:00 in the morning ohh sorry i say then she walks out I start laughing I lay down and it did not take me long to fall asleep trust me. The next morning of course I slept in I look at the time and it was 12:00. should I be surprised, naaa I say to my self. well it's his birthday yay I get to see him at 6:00. *Grrrrr* ouch my stomach. Sooo hungry. I go to the kitchen and get some lucky charms yumm! Well I go back to my room with my cereal and turn on Star vs the forces of evil. Oh my gosh they finally have the one where star and Marco are in the photo both I click on that and start watching  and eating my cereal "a few moments later" *spits out cereal* they kissed!!! I scream as a lucky charm falls off my tv stand. Opps. I say kinda quiet. I went and got a rag and wipe it up as I eat what is left of my cereal and watch the show aww poor Marco he's embarrassed I know how that feels trust me. Well a few hours later it's 4:30pm and it should start at 6:00pm I was bored so I text Trent and say it's a 6:00 right? A few seconds later he replied. Ummm no it starts around 4:50 omg I told Lilly it was at like 6:00
Okay so I freaked out a little bit but it's not 4:50 yet and the rink is right down the road soo it's ok my mom left because my little sister had to go to one of her little friend's party so before she left I said goodbye to her and she said to where jeans so okay that actually helped so I just get my newest pare of jeans and one of my fav t-shirts so it looked pretty ok I guess. Okay so got our dad to drive us and we were almost there and I just realized I forgot the money and card on the office desk. darn it! well hopefully he just doesn't notice. we get there and their is not many girls there so what a relief. The people we really knew was, Autumn, Kimber, and other than that it's his family and Leo was there too he is part of our little friend group so yeahh there are still more kids from our school and some that move schools I just didn't really care about them. some time past and we had just ate the cupcakes and ice cream it was fun and then my mom showed up I skate to her and she had the card and I'm like thank the Lord. She's like yeah so here you go I take it and give it to Trent and I go back to Autumn and of course my little sister has to skate so we stayed there for a few more minutes and then we left. It was actually more fun than I expected
So I was completely satisfied so over the days it really wasn't much and then one day we got into this conversation about Daisy then he said he was over her and I'm like seriously how was that even a crush I mean she is prettier than me for sure but other than that yeah well they did start talking a bit more so I guess I can see how that happened well that night I'm just sitting there thinking it all started that filed day with that kiss. I can just melt thinking about it he's the first guy I actually loved and that loved me as much as I loved him I mean how could you forget some one like that. More days past and we just got into this really deep and serious conversation and he admitted that he liked me and I'm like you know what I am also going to admit that I like him too we talked and talk so I said we should wait till school starts back to date because we just broke up he agreed but I still didn't know if I should yet and tbh for awhile I wasn't going to do it be cause that would be my 3rd time dating him and I thought my parents wouldn't like that and make fun of me and I hate when my family does that but then after I was at the beach for a week we can back I was having mixed feeling about it again because I really did like him but I care what other people think and I know what you are thinking "oh don't you watch Disney channel you know you aren't supposed to care what other people think of you"umm... HECK TO THE NO! For 1 it's not like you can just ignore being made fun of by your own family and for 2 I don't even know if they are going to react that way or not they actually could be serious about it and that's even worse and it was July the 5th I know you are supposed watch fireworks on the 4th but we didn't technically do that instead we played with sparklers at my house just my family and they were having a get together thing at my cousins uncles house my cousin was kinda cousins with my friend Jessica that we didn't get to have a sleepover with but at least we got to see each other and catch up we still text and stuff but we just really needed to seee each other and we were talking about Trent she said are you going to date Trent when school starts back and I'm like idk. She says I hope you do. and I'm like why? She says you and him have always been a good couple and I'm like you know what I guess I will date him I have always liked him! Even  before we were dating I liked him. After that we laughed the night away. At that point it was very dark I checked the time and it was 10:45p͟m͟  and we was in the mountains and it would probably take us 25 minutes to get back home. Nanna was getting tired anyway so we said bye to Jessica and our cousins after that we got in the car and went home I took a shower and I was really tired so I didn't even text or do anything thing on my phone I just went to sleep right when I got in bed. A few da- well not just a few it's been a really boring summer to be honest I don't know how long it was I just know it was awhile we basically took a huge break in between and then I got added in a group chat on Instagram. Trent, me, Jessica, a girl named Marcy, a guy named Bruce, a guy named Trey, and a guy named Cody was on the group chat we all talked about just random stuff and especially panic at the disco to be honest it was actually really fun to be in the group chat. Also....I hate to say it but me and Trent barely even talked on the group chat but I guess we aren't dating just yet so we are free but it's been really long since we had a good Conversation. You know what it's fine I should just stop worrying it's not a huge problem yet so we good about a week later the group Chat was getting less and less interesting so I just never said anything I just read the Messages basically and I guess I just started getting use to Trent and I sent him quotes and he is just like cool where do you find these and I'm like Pinterest and it's not like he even cares and Fortnight I actually really do like Fortnight I'm not a nerd or anything it's just a really fun game to play with my cousin. It's on my phone so yeah that's cool I guess and once I was really sad because I was playing Fortnight Andi got in 3rd I was so close to 1st but that darn storm got me and then he just left me on read and I'm just like why?!? I was sad. After that we started talking a little more not any thing important though we finally get to have a sleepover with Jessica I mean if she doesn't cancel a few days later she still hasn't canceled and tomorrow is the sleepover so maybe we actually will get to have a successful sleepover for the first time since summer break started and summer break is Almost over too it's July 22nd right now and school starts back August 3rd and I'm actually kind of excited for school to start so I can see my friends and him my special friend. I already know what I'm going to do the first time I see him I'm going to race up to him and give him a huge hug it will be so romantic I can just see it the only thing I'm worried about is that he will lose his feelings for me but I'm not in the mood for bad vibes right now I don't even know why I'm usually depressed, do I have a fever! Just kidding. Oh and did I mention me and my sister Lilly made a huge fort with blankets It coverd almost the whole room The next day was so so sooooo boring all we did was lay round it was finally 4:30 the time her mom gets of work. five minutes later I text Jessica
Me:when are you coming
Jessica: we're on you road
Me: ohh ok good
A few minutes later the door bell rang I go open the door it's Jessica! Hey Jessica! Hey Low! She walked in and she pulled her shoes of where we always pull our shoes of and we ran to my room me, Lilly and Jessica did I showed her my new lamp and we just talk a little and I'm like Lilly should we show her and Jessica like show me what? And Lilly is like oh yeahh and Jessica over there like show me what?? And We race down the stairs and on the last few steps I tripped and fell I just sat there a few seconds later we all started laughing we laughed so hard it hurt.That was really funny and I couldn't get up after that I was laughing so much but I got up and we went into the playroom and she was like wooooow. do you want to know why she was so amazed by a fort/tent? It's because me and Lilly used 9 huge blankets to build it. It took up more than half of the room too. It was kinda fun to make to be honest. We laid in it for hours. we ate jellybeans and donuts in there too! Few minutes later we got a little uncomfortable so we went up stairs. We were heating up the pizza and then Aaliyah saw lightning so we were cooool lightning we heated up the pizza and we went to the table with some pizza and this mite seem not very cool for a sleepover but we had a vegetable tray and we were eating broccoli, carrots, tomatoes, and celery with dressing. It was so good! And a lot of people mite think it's gross but we all liked it and I found this thing on Pinterest and I LOVE the apple fizz drink from Olive Garden it's like the best drink ever! So I found the recipe and I made it and every one LOVED IT!   I think I did pretty good! After that we went down stairs again ant we talked a little and then we got on our phones around like 10 minutes later we went up stairs because we weren't that comfortable. We got in bed and it did Lightning and thunder for a bit. It was 2:00 in the morning and We were all hungry so we was going to go to The kitchen to get some food. If you have spent the night at my house you would know how LOUD & SQUEAKY! my floor is.I have lived in that house for nine years I think know these floors more than anyone else in the house. ok we planned to go to the pantry.
"Ok guys all You have to do is just watch where I step if you some how get off track then just stay close to the wall. OK we good?" "good"
Okay I go first then Lilly then Jessica we get to the part where you can either go to the kitchen👉or the pantry👈me and Jess go to the pantry oh yeah I just remembered we got some new Oreos they tasted just like the other one but guess what it has in it pop rocks! I love them either way and Jessica can't find anything she is really picky but then I'm like where is Lilly and I look out the pantry door and she is looking in the fridge. Hey Jess you can see if there is something in the fridge you want as we stay close to the walls and quietly go to the kitchen we are passing by mom's phone and (BEEEEP!!! BEEEEP!! BEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!) it was soo soooo loud and it scared us so much that we started dashing, dashing down the halls to my room and what made it even worse I dropped my oreos on my way.I know it's soo tragic😪 But it also made even more noise. Me and Jessica jump on to my bed and a few seconds later " umm... Where is Lilly?!"

To be continued...