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Blakemax-confrontation(part 2)

Hey uh just a heads up this includes soft!max-ernest and Benjamin dealing with internalized homophobia so uhhh,,,, just your average fanfiction yeah

When Blake got to school, all he saw was eyes watching him from his table. He nervously sat down, glancing around the entirety of the table. "Uh, guys...? "

"You have a crush on Max-Ernest. "
Benjamin choked and nearly tipped out of his chair. "W-WHAT?! What the HELL, Amber?! Why would you think that? "

Amber took a deep breath in. "Boy, " she said, tilting her hands at him"I been doing some snooping, and boy, you show all the signs! "

"Explain to me, please, why in the name of the Midnight Sun you would think that. " said Benjamin. He was so confused, how did she know...? wait, no, he didn't have a crush! Just... A really strong attachment is all.

"Oh, I don't know, the way you look at him longingly? The way you laugh at everything he says, or how you can't look him in the face without blushing, or how you get this dreamy look in your eye whenever you talk about him? " (The girls around the table cooed and started commenting things like "oh, I wish that were me" and "go for it, Ben! ")

Benjamin was absolutely baffled. "I-I don't do that! Wait... I... I do that? " come to think of it, he did kind of ramble when talking about him, and how he always felt sort of elevated when he was near him, and how it hurt to see him leave and....

Oh no.
Oh no.

"O-oh, my god, I actually do h-have... " Benjamin stuttered, at a loss for words. He slowly sunk into his chair, holding his head in his hands. Amber reached over and held his shoulder. "Hey, now that you know, and I know, you know what we do next. "

"And what's that? " said Benjamin, peeking between his fingers hesitantly.

"Weee tell him! " she said peppily.

"Oh my god. No. Oh my god fucking no. Hell no. We are never telling him. " Amber looked disappointed. "But-but you... Have a crush on him. Why can't you? Are you just afraid or something?"

"N-no, I can't tell him. He'll hate me for the rest of his life. He'll think I'm gross. Or unnatural or-or just... Weird. So no, we can't tell him. "

Amber rolled her eyes. "Look, I know I probably wouldn't understand your fear because I'm straight-" she glanced at the table where Cass and Yo-yoji were having a heated discussion about urban myths- "... For the most part, but I need you to understand this." She held his hands away from his face to see him. "You can't avoid the problem for long. Its going to sneak up on you, whether you like it or not. "

Benjamin was confused, afraid and angry all at the same time. His whole vision was swarming with shades of blue and green at this point from all the talk around the popular kids table, little coos from the girls and cheering from the guys, and the occasional hushed hateful comment, which was a red flicker drowned in a sea of cool.

"O-okay, I'll tell him. Eventually. Just... Promise me, if anything goes wrong, you'll be there for me, alright? " Amber smiled and nodded, happier now that he had finally accepted his feelings for him. "Oh, of course, when am I not? " she said. Benjamin bit his lip, holding back a snarky reply.

🍫meanwhile at the nuts table🍫

"And I'm honestly convinced he doesn't know that I know. Which is cute. " Max finished. Cass nodded. "I can see where you're coming from, but don't you think this is a little, uh, bit of a stretch? " "Dude. " said Yo-yoji, taking a sip of water. "Its so obvious its scary. Like, he's not even hiding it. Weirdly enough. " Cass looked thoughtful for a moment, before she spoke.

"Do you think.... He doesn't realize he's showing it? The crush, I mean. Just, think for a sec. Benjamin's been taught to suppress most emotions nearly his whole life, it would make sense if he didn't realize he was letting it show so obviously."

"Or-or maybeee... " said Yo-yoji butted in, taking Cass by suprise, "he's using you as a key to get close to Cass for revenge, so he can finally find out the secret! "

Max looked at him, confused. "Ben doesn't seem like the type of person to do that." He said slowly. Yo-yoji looked dissapointed, sad that his theory probably wasn't right.

Eventually it was time to go to class ; both the Nuts table and The popular table packed up at the same time. As they shuffled through the hallway, Max and Benjamin caught eyes in the hallway. Max smiled at him brightly, that gleam in his eyes taunting him.

Benjamin held his face in his hands, letting out a little squeak. Max laughed and walked away to his class. Amber noticed and rolled her eyes. "What a nerd. "