The Nem Panem

Chapter 12

*Fay

Oh my god, I think. Oh my god. I just shot someone! They're just lying down in the forest. And they're gonna wake up! They're not dead! And they're gonna find me! But I shot him! Did it even make a difference he still can move!

My hands are shaking terribly but I try to control it. It doesn't help. Every nerve in my body is buzzing. Every tiny sound I hear my head jerks in that direction! Oh my god! What if my parents didn't make it out alive??? What if I can't find Joshua!?!??? Why did we have to leave to the forest!! This was such a mistake! I hit the tree trunk in frustration! It had to be us! It had to be our family! My mom is known in history as both hero and villain but did they ever stand and think that maybe she's just a normal person now?? That maybe she's just trying to take care of her family?!? No they didn't! And now she's probably dead! And my dad! Not my dad! My dads always been the soft one towards us! He always brought home cookies from the bakery and was a great dad! Now he's dead too! Both of my parents both of the people I love! I can't lost faith. But I mean how did I not think about it before they're pretty old. They haven't fought in 28 years! My parents were so stupid to think they could fight! And now what if I've lost everyone? What if I'm trapped in this forest forever? I shiver at the thought.

"My family," I let out as a whisper.

And then I'm crying my eyes out. And I just keep thinking the same thing. My family. It's just not fair! And what does this have to do with anything! I don't even understand what they're angry about! My family. I sob again. What if they're all gone?

I cry for what feels like forever and then I hear a crunch. I try to conceal myself. Don't let him see me. I knew he'd wake up. And now he's come after me. Just don't let him see you. I think to myself. Your safe as long as he doesn't know your there. I hear another crunch. He's creeping silently. He's getting closer. My hands start shaking again and I'm really scared. Stay still, I think to myself. Don't let him see you-

I hear a whisper,"Fay..," says the voice.

I'd recognize that voice anywhere. Mom.

"Mom," I let out in a raspy voice. She looks up and I see relief flood her face. She smiles and I climb down the tree to fall into her arms. She hugs me as I tremble and cry and I tell her everything. I tell her I thought she was dead and how I don't know where Joshua is and how I shot that man in the forest.

She just whispers,"I know I know," as she hugs me and strokes my hair.

"I was so scared," I tell her. She just holds me and strokes my hair.

"I know sweetie but we still need to find your father and Joshua. We split up. I went looking for you and he went looking for your brother," she tells me and gives me a reassuring nod as to not to worry.

We head back the way we came and it wasn't that hard. In minutes we found them. Dad was just fine but Joshua had a cut on his ankle. He always ends up hurt the most. I hug him and he hugs me back.

We find a small cave to camp I for the night but in the morning Mom says we'll have to move. Can't stay in the same place for very long. At least were safe. For the moment were safe. And I fall asleep to the reassuring thought of that.