Zindagi tu hai kaha

Chapter 1

Once again she found herself standing at the same place . Once again all her emotions were flowing through her eyes. Once again she was empty. Once again....

She brought a finger below her eyes and caught a tear. Her lips twitched up a little as her good memories of him began playing before her eyes like a reel of some movie. She was a mess with tears and smiles. She was broken to the point where there was no return to happy self ever.
Her hands reached towards the ring which he had placed it and brought it close to her lips.
Why did you break me? What have i ever done wrong to you? She cried wetting her cheeks even more.
Clutching her ring tight in her fingers she falls on her knees. Lips had no movement, eyes were shut holding tears as if they were complaining and asking for mercy.
A small drop from sky falls on her forehead as if Allah! kissed her there giving her courage and love. She brought a hand on her forehead and touched the heavenly drop with tips of her fingers.
"I know I can't give up. Naumeedi gunah hai!" She smiled giving herself courage to get up and collect herself together.
She took her bag which she had dropped next to her feet and holding it tight between her arms she began walking. Slowly the place that holds all good memories of her with him and the same place where first brick of her destruction was kept , now started to fade behind.
The heavy focus of headlights only added glow to her already glowing persona. The beautiful twinkling of star smiled at her courage. She promised herself to never let anyone take advantage of her vulnerable ever. She is a fighter as her father said " mera sher bacha". She will make this line of her father true.  Zoya siddique ,will be a child to her father that he always wished. Now to support him and help him will be her only goal. He never challenged her any decision. Loving Yash was her biggest mistake, but her emotions were true she felt it wrong to regret for having feelings for him. It was her decision to marry him and now when he chickened out last minute of their marriage she cant blame it to anyone. His love was weak he was a failure in love. So she decided to not punish herself for his action.
Lost in her trails of thoughts ,Zoya didnt even know when she reached threshold of her home. She checked for a spare keys in her bag and opened the door with it.
Lights were off which means everyone was sleeping. She didnt try to switch light on. Past few days were nightmare for everyone. Society didnt leave a single chance to harass her and her family. The minimum they deserve is better sleep. She walks across dining table to get a glass of water for herself and spots serving bowls with rice and gravies and 4 plates as it is on table. Instantly her eyes sting with tears and she drops herself on chair, crying silently within herself. She checked on time it showed 11 pm. Her family loves her so much. How can she hurt them trouble them for somone who didnt had guts to give her commitment for life. She promised to change herself and get everything back to normal. Struggling herself with steps she managed to reach to her room and shuts the door.

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"Api?You are up so early?" She found her younger sister Noor voice behind her.
Zoya stopped in her tracks turned back to bed where noor is laying sleepily. She dropped a kissed on her forehead and hummed in answer.
Without replying breifly zoya began walking towards her abu ammi room.
She gave a knock on door knowing very well her abu must be up by now. He has a habbit to wake up very early in the family.
As soon as door opened she gave a hug to her abu.
"Abu today's meeting with Mr Sayyed corporation is pre pone to 8 am . So I'll be leaving early to office. You can come behind. Dont worry i will manage." She rushed out her words in one breathe. Leaving mr siddique with knitted brow.
"Beta? You are going to office? " Her father gave a nervous laugh and continued "but you dont know anything about office. Wait let me come with you." He insisted and turned around quickly with a mindset to get ready as quick as possible.
Zoya holds his hand and softly turns him around. "Abu humpe yakeen rakhe aap. I will manage everything perfectly. Please!" She gave the most heart warming smile to her father. Mr siddique no longer cared about this deal he was happy that his little birdie finally wanted to fly her wings. And he was all set to support her like all time Mr siddique brought a hand to her cheeks and blessed her luck.
Flashing smile at him zoya picked up the files more properly in her hands and began walking towards door, Mr siddique eyes glistened proudly as his loving daughter slowly faded behind the bright rays of sun.

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"Gaffur bhai. Please get us out of this traffic. Its already 7.30 here we have to reach office atleast 15 min earlier than clients to make preparations." She brought her hand on her forehead and tried to wipe nervousness off it.
"Beta we are stuck with bad traffic jam I dont think we will be able to reach office even on time." Gaffur replied helplessly looking around all cars.
"Ya Allah!" Zoya sighed and patted her both hands on her knees in frustration.
She checked here and there for a while before suddenly picking up her files and bags she got out of car.
Gaffur brought his head almost out of window in shock. "Beta where are you going? "
Zoya paced up her speed as she replied "you bring car directly to office I will walk to office till then. Its no use to sit and wait. Hopefully i can make it on time if not before it." She crossed the road and  began running with faster speed. Her duppata and hair were dancing in rhythm. She tried her best to not stop in between. Her breathe came out as thick and heavy and her stomach began to hurt. Just when she was about to fall  two hands from no where caught her from side and made her balance on her feet again. She looked up confuse still panting on her breathe. A beautiful pair of eyes with a smile on lips were welcoming her. He had an aura of an angel his skin shinning in sunlight. His hairs were flirting with breeze.
"Gottcha" he flashed teeths and laughed goofily at zoya.
"Haan?" Zoya felt desperation to shut him out and tried to back off. When again a stone behind her made her trip.
Once again he caught her by her forearm and helped her to stand. Embarrassed with her actions she lowered her eyes and distracted herself by correctly her duppata and files.
He watched her with an angelic smile intensly. Zoya looked up and met his intense eyes full of hopes and life.
She again pulled herself off him and tried to run away. But he didnt let that happen he stopped her by standing in middle of her track.
"I think i atleast deserve a thankyou miss..??" 
"Zoya." She completed for him and then instantly squeezed her eyes for telling him her name.
His face glowed with happines. And he nods "zoya."
He sighed "can i help you miss zoya?"
Zoya quickly nods her head in no and tried to walk once again this time tucking him behind.
"Hey miss. If you want you can all be PT Usha on road and run like mad. Or else let me help you.I am sure i can help you reach where ever you want more quickest than your little athletic walk."
Zoya's eyebrows squeezed in confusion his words were greek for her.
His face lited with realization and he brings a hand on his forehead in disbelief " Hey bhagwan you don't know who is PT usha. PT Usha madam...Piluwalkandi Tekaparvil usha" he used lot of hand to keep his point but all he got favoured with was a blank stare by zoya.
"Huh!! Okay never mind." He decided to skip this topic and asked her once again " where you wanna go tell me? Let me help you"
Zoya desparately wanted to avoid him but one glance at watch and her all defence began crumbing down. Its already 7.55.Now there is no way she can make it on time. She didnt even realize when her tears have wetted her cheeks. She glanced up and found him holding same expression as her's waiting for her to speak.
A minute of silence passed finally he couldnt hold anymore. "At what time you were supposed to reach?" His voice had desperation in it.
"8" she softly replied.
He checked on time and ran behind. A few seconds later he was back next to her with his Royal Enfield bike.
"Sit" he ordered.
She fidgeted with her fingers and evaluated in her subconscious mind.
"Dont overthink now. Sit or else you will miss it." He sounded dead serious this time.
Like her hands and legs have their own thinking ability they functioned and soon she found herself sitting behind him.
He started bike and soon they were on road with a lightning speed.........