Keep Me Close (SPAM)

Hurting Inside...

Friend 1 = W Friend 2 = X Friend 3 = V Friend 4 = U

W

"You forgot my birthday..."

Me

I look away.I don't wanna start an argument over nothing and this is basically nothing.As if my heart disagrees,it starts to throb.I can't exactly say I left it in the car, alongside my P.E kit.I left it alone, and just looked away.I took a few deep breaths and hid the hurt forming in my eyes.Then they get up,X asks whether I want to join.I look at her and shake my head.I don't want to see that - I know too much already and I can't exactly do anything.Plus I need to get over my feelings - I can't exactly go to lessons like this, can I?

The bell rings.X,W and V all go one way and quickly I go the other and meet up with U for lessons.We go the long way around because I saw them go the other way and I don't want to upset W on her birthday.I walk ahead and leave U behind.I lean against the wall.U walks towards me and tries to talk.I, immediately shut her down.Just then the teacher arrives and springs a test on us.I tried to concentrate but the same four words kept going round my head."You forgot my birthday...You forgot my birthday...You forgot my birthday..."

The times comes for self assessment.I got 3/23.Rubbish!At break, I placed my bag on a chair and walked quickly to the bathroom.Once inside,I slid down the wall and place my head in my hands.Thankfully, no tears come out.I take out the piece of paper that she gave me previously and read the full thing.Lies.All lies.Then the door handle moved.I unlocked the door and unleashed the pent up emotions on the Year 7. It was their fault.Don't do me over...

I walk to my next lesson.I forgot my book.Oh well, I don't care anymore.W walks to me halfway through the lesson."You OK?"I say yes, even though I'm not but I don't want to ruin her day.She smiles."I know you're lying...".I reply I'm not.She doesn't say anything, just simply moves to the front.Am I that good at lying now?I feel like something just stabbed in the lower back.Is this really me?I hide everything and get back to work, trying not to think about it.

Lunch comes and I try to hide everything away.I eat lunch with two of my other friends and we come to a game of 'Count me- Truth or Dare'.I land unluckily on the number and I choose dare.They dared me to tell them about my bf.I try to escape and win on the second try. I've had plenty of tries before.I run to their squad and ask them to help me trick her.They agree.I tell her that I know her secret and she immediately goes to her squad to try and figure this out.They act their parts perfectly.Finally,I think it's time to tell her and so I told.My reward: I got chased,hit with an umbrella,hit with a book hit with a bottle and ignored.When she is chasing me,W comes and tries to ask why she is chasing me.The whole story is exchanged.W turns to me and gives me a thumbs up.I sigh.She didn't realise my fake smile.

I barely got through math and art.Just then, it was home time.I was relieved.Less pretending now - hopefully.I walked towards the gates, lost in my own thoughts when V brings me out of it.I smile.She tries to tell me about U's squad and their troubles but I simply said that I didn't want to know anything.I didn't want anything to make meworried and everything was already messed up.I didn't want two of my friend's squad to make me any more confused.I shot her down standing.Without even saying goodbye, I left to the car.

I walked towards my door.I need to get U's present from the back.The door is opened by my brother.He has an apologetic look on his face."I'm sorry, I tried..."I walk past him and into the living room.Pieces of torn paper,broken pencils and splattered paints greet me." I tried to stop him."The tears finally made an appearance on my face.You know what, let her think I forgot her birthday.It's better that trying to explain all this.Let her think I'm a bad friend - I probably am.I walked out of the room, paint on my skirt, dropped my bags and ran.