Keep Me Close (SPAM)

My Crush On You

I might be polite.I may be sweet but don't underestimate me.My heart rules over my body somehow.I needn't think - only feel...Rejection is written all over my face yet I cover it up with this arrogant girl.You never did see pass the cover,only said you did.You are what I call a LIAR and that is what I hate the most.

This cover of mine may cause people to hide, to scream, to run but if that's what it takes - I'll do it.My masks never slips, never reveals my true nature and I'm proud of that.No-one will ever know what I feel inside.I teach myself to think, not to feel.Think of logical solutions to the things,the problems swirling inside of me and you'd never know - looking at my rip jeans,leather jacket,attitude.You'll run a mile and that's how I like it.

Until you.You came around and saw through every facade.Every wall I put up,you teased it down.You never gave up on me, even when it seemed inevitable.You didn't run at the sight of the loner girl with the books.You saw a dorky nerd who wanted to be heard and you let me speak.You didn't pressurize me and sat there in silence.You waited until I was ready to tell you.

You came up to me one night.I was sitting on a bench, looking at the stars.You sat down beside me,didn't even say a word.I smiled and we just sat, looking up at the stars together.Even though we live in the city so the constellations are incomplete, you pointed out nearly every one out to me.Now every Saturday night, we go through the same routine even now, in the summer, when the dark doesn't come til later.We laugh and we talk - like we've been friends forever.

It's funny how I've only known you for half a year yet it feels like infinity.I could answer a questionnaire on your hobbies,your exes,the food you love and hate - I take crushing to a whole other level.There's only one problem.I have a boyfriend and you have a girlfriend.The fates don't want this to happen.I keep imagining those smiles on your face when I'm being my idiotic self and all I think is I wish we could be like this forever...

But even though this feels like we could go on forever,eventually we'd have to give this up.Sure, we're friends now - why?Because you have no interest in me and I'm the one into you and you'll eventually go back to your girlfriend and leave me standing there while you cuddle up together.Leaving me brokenhearted...

Now, though,I'm going to enjoy this while it lasts.There ain't going to another time like this so I'm going to make the most of it.Sneaking glances at you through the side of my eyes,smiling at the things you say, basking in the warmth of your smile.Yeah, I've got a crush on you but you'll never know.I won't tell you - this stays locked up in my heart forever.Darling,I've got a crush on you...