The day had finally come…….when I need to take the surgery to remove the tumour. I wasn't scared if the surgery fails or not but if I could see my family and friends again and also Eunhyuk. Will I still be able to love him even though we cannot be together? Too many questions were in my mind and I try and control them so it would not affect me during the surgery. My members stay beside me the whole night and we talk and talk. Now it’s my surgery time and I was scared if could be able to see them again. Hera saw something out in the windows and told me to come...
As I was looking out of windows I was shock to see something. It was my fans "Smileys" spreading paper cranes on the floor and created a word for me "FIGHTING" my eyes started to be watery and I kept rubbing it. I was really please how my fans love me and support me during the time when I have the tumour in me.
As I was still looking down to them the door started to knock. I turn around and saw my grandpa, Hanbyul and my master standing there. I looked at my grandpa and he nodded. I know what he meant and it’s time to do the surgery now. I nodded back and told my members to go while I get change. My members are waiting for me in front of the operation door. I was taken by the nurse in a bed where I can feel comfortable. While I was been taken to the room I looked up where the lights are so bright. It makes me scared in the last minute that I wouldn't see the lights again.
I finally arrived but stop to glance at my members, family, Junyoung and Super Junior who came to support me.
My grandma holds my hand and strokes my face with her other...
Grandma: Don't be scared child! I will wait for you to come out
I nodded and looked to everyone and they kept telling me to stay strong and they are here to wait for me to come out. I suddenly glance at Eunhyuk and he stared at me deeply. I will always remember that look of his. He gave me a signal to not be scared, I nodded to him and glance to a different direction.
Grandpa: Don't worry I will make sure you will be safe after this
I nodded to him and turn to Hanbyul
Lauren: Thanx Hanbyul
Hanbyul: No worries
Grandpa: Okay it's time now we better start..
I was been taken in… my operation has started and everyone from outside is worrying about me.
Grandpa: Okay let start now….
Hanbyul and my master nodded including the nurses were prepared.
………………………. (During the operation)
My grandpa took some parts of my tumour and in order the nurses to take to the chemical check and to see what type of tumour is growing on me. The surgery went really well but unfortunately it was too be stopped after they heard what type of tumour was in me. It was a star figure which meant it cannot be get rid of completely.
The operation stopped and everyone thought it will be good news to be heard.
My grandpa, Hanbyul and including my master came out. Everyone approach to them to hear good news whether or not did they got rid of the tumour.
Grandma: Honey how was it? Was it a successful one? (Holding my grandpa’s hand)
My grandpa didn't spoke, but Hanbyul came forward to speak for everyone...
Hanbyul: She got the star figure tumour on her…
My grandma, my sister including Elana was shock after hearing the news. But the others didn't understand what they were talking about…
