Dear First Love.

First one-shot story ko :) Trip ko lang to, na-encode na to sa MS Word, so, nilagay ko nalang dito. Wala mang magbasa neto, basta, nailabas ko lang yung damdamin ko. ;] Yun lang.

SO ETO NA.

Dear First Love,

♫ Kung Alam Mo Lang Kaya ♫

Hindi mo na kailangan pa 

Ito’y sabihin pa 

Na mayro’ng nagbago 

Sa loob ng puso mo.

Wala akong magagawa 

Kung ’di palayain ka,

Kaya pinilit kong 

Huwag aminin sa iyo

I tried so hard.  I tried my best. I gave you my all, and now there’s nothing left. You stole my heart, then tore it in two. Now I’m falling apart, and don’t know what to do. I’m living in the present. My mind is on the past. Not knowing what I’ll lose. Not knowing what will last.

I need to move on says my head. I need to hold on says my heart. I need to decide says my mind. I envy the way this hasn’t hurt you at all. I envy her. I envy the fact you don’t understand what this feels like at all. I want to hurt you. I want to be with you.

Kung alam mo lang kaya,

Ang tunay na nadarama?

Nanaisin mo pa bang 

Lumayo sa piling ko?

At kung alam mo lang sana,

Kailan ma’y di mawawala

Ang pag-ibig ko sa ’yo,

Laging nasa puso ko.

I wish I could change time. I wish I could change you. I wish I could have hurt you before you hurt me. I need you out of my thoughts. I need you out of my heart. I need to start doing things for me. I hate that you used me. I hate that I gave you something I can never have back.I hate that I wasted it with you.

Akala ko ay kaya na,

Ngayong wala ka na.

Ngunit hindi pala

Limutin ka’y ’di magawa.

Palagi kong tinatanong

Sa sarili kong ito,

Ikaw ba’y lalayo 

Kung lahat ay inamin ko?

I’m tired of hoping aimlessly for you. I’m tired of wanting something I can’t have. I’m tired of hurting me for things that aren’t my fault. I’m sorry I was good enough. I’m sorry I defended you when everyone else was right. I’m sorry I couldn’t make you happy.

Funny though how you never once said sorry

for hurting me,

for breaking me,

for not loving me.

You don’t love me, and you never will. You will never care about how I feel. My friends say I should leave you alone, and just so you can be happy. It really kills me but I’m going to be strong, and take this fall.

If you ever need me, I’ll be here. But until then, I’ll just let it be. But just so you know, I really had fun, when it was just you and me.

DEPRESSION is all I know,

The RAZOR is my only friend,

MUSIC is my peacemaker,

TEARS stain my cheeks &

EMPTINESS is all I feel.

But I am only 14. I didn’t think you would find another. Was I just your REBOUND? Wow, thank you. I should’ve thought that it would last. Cause FOREVER doesn't exist.

PAASA YANG FOREVER. </3

Kahit wala na tayo, alam pa rin ng puso ko na mahal pa rin kita. Hindi man madaling mag move on, pero ganun lang kasimple yun.

"Mathematics may not teach us how to add love or to minus hate. But it gives us the hope that every problem has its own solution. And I hope, that solution will come, NOT SO SOON."

Sincerely hurt,

Patricia

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Tagos puso eh </3

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