After my shower, I went into my room wrapped in a towel. Drying off, I quickly got dressed. I didn't want Justin to see me naked.
I got dressed and went to check on Amelia. My footsteps stopped once I heard Justin's voice.
"Daddy loves his baby girl." He coos to our daughter.
I could tell he was or had been crying. And usually I'd be heartbroken, but at the moment I could care less.
Nothing could compare to the three years I've suffered. I've cried night after night I've went to sleep alone, crying because I knew he was with random girls and left me to deal with it.
"I can't lose you. I need you both in my life." He sobs.
My heart clenched, but I refused to cry for him. Or feel any remorse for him. I hated him. I hated him so much. And it hurt.
"Daddy will let you sleep." He says, as he lays her down in her crib.
Before he could see me, I walk into kitchen, sobbing a little.
"Leeanne..."
"D-don't..." I warn, my body turn away from him.
"Leeanne... I-I'm sorry... I-I got carried away..."
"I hate you..." I hiss.
There was complete silence. And I knew my words had hurt him.
"N-no... Y-you don't mean that..."
"Don't you dare tell me what I mean." I hiss turning around to face him.
"You were so wrapped up in your own world... You didn't even realize I was pregnant once before."
His eyes widen. "W-what?"
"The first time you cheated... I was pregnant. And when I found out, I was going to tell you. But I couldn't..."
He looked so hurt. So broken. Like his whole world crashed.
"I lost the baby. It died. And you didn't even... Care."
"Y-you n-never t-told me..."
"You didn't deserve to know."
"What the fuck do you mean?!" He cries out walking closer to me.
"The fuck you think I mean? You cheated on me. Countless times. I stayed home every night, crying. Because you couldn't keep your dick to yourself. I miscarried our baby, the baby you talked about having with me, because I was so concerned about you fucking other bitches."
"Lee you could've told me. I could've helped you."
"If you wanted to help me, you could've been faithful. You could've stayed faithful to me. Just like I was to you. Do you know what it feels like? To stay at home waiting for the love of your life to get home knowing there's a chance he'd be screwing another bitch?"
"I'm sorry okay?!" He sobs. "It was a mistake. All of it. It was a big mistake."
"That doesn't change anything."
"Leeanne... Please..."
"I slept with someone..."
His eyes widen. "You what?"
"After I left you, my mom took Amelia for a while and I went out and... Met a guy. I was a one night stand."
"What?"
"It was a one night stand."
"No. Y-you s-slept with someone."
"Y-yeah."
"W-why?" He sobs.
"I could ask you the same thing."
"W-why w-would you-"
"To see what it felt like to sleep with someone other than you. Although we stopped having sex... Months ago."
"How could you-"
"Oh please... You and I weren't even together..."I sniffle.
"B-but-"
"Now that you know... I want you to think about that. Think about a man... Pleasing me the way you use to. Making me feel good the way you use to. Touching me, kissing me the way you use to. And maybe then, you'll understand what it feels like to suffer the way I did for the past three years."
After saying those words, I left him there, a sobbing mess. And I hoped my words cut him.
And deep.
(A/n: sorry it's short. Don't worry things may get better. Comment your thoughts.:)
