My path is not straight

Cool...not!

(Fluff Warning)
                                 *2 months later*

It's October and life has gotten way better. Aiden, his brother, Josh, and his best friend Tristen hang out with me. Me and Melody are friends now and she gets different jobs every week. This week she is a babysitter. We only hang out together at lunch, because thats the only time we are all in the same room. My friends and I are like the 2nd most popular group with boys and girls, but I'm not snobby like most people, I'm more like a class clown/ nerd/ artist type of person, and I'm really socially conservative. Oh, btw, remember the butthole jock who bullied me, well, he got caught abusing me and was sent to another school. Also, tomorrow, I'm going to a Halloween party Aiden is throwing. Me and Aiden have gotten...closer. And by closer I mean we kissed. I was at the park one Saturday night, and he happened to be there too. He saw me on the bench, listening to music so he just abovetook advantage of that and decided to scare me. I freaked out and screamed. I kinda had a panic attack and he comforted me. He made it up to me by getting me ice cream but decided to mess up again. He put ice cream on my nose, and when I couldn't lick it off, he licked it off my nose. I called him disgusting, and I walked out the store. He ran after me and grabbed my hand. I turned around, and he accidentally pulled me too close. My lips were only a few centimeters away from his. My heart was beating so fast it was bound to pop out my chest. He closed the gap and I swear my lips felt like if they were on fire. He grabbed/hugged me just above my waist and I wrapped my arms around his neck. After that we awkwardly walked to our homes and said goodbye.I don't think he knows this but I like him, a lot. I mean sure he can be a doofus sometimes but he's really sweet and..cool.

Today is the Halloween party and I'm so excited. A few days ago I bought a costume for the party and I'm ready to wear it today. Of course I'm not wearing it to school. Nobody does. They keep it a surprise. It's like a before and after thing, everyone wants to see you transform, and if you don't, well, no one cares. I put my costume next to my homework in my book bag. After arriving at school, I see Aiden across the hall talking to Melody, but before I can make it to them I see her kiss Aiden. You know how it feels when you feel like if your heart stopped, well, that's how I felt at the moment. My crush kissed my girl best friend, or the other way around? This is fake. This is not real. I have only felt this once, when Gina died. Confusion, disbelief, grief, anger, betrayal. I slowly walk out the school building, crying. Why, why are you crying Jamie. He was never yours. It's his choice. I keep on saying to myself in my head "You're wrong.", but I still feel as if cracks that I have slowly closed have reopened and became bigger. Jamie you are stronger than this, don't cry over a boy, go back out there and show them who's boss. I aggressively wipe my tears and stomp all the way back to school. Before I open the door, I wipe my face and put on a fake smile when I see them again both blushing. "Hey guys, what are you doing here? You should go to class!" I say through clenched teeth. Melody doesn't notice how uncomfortable I am but Aiden shows some concern. "Class doesn't start until 15 more minutes, remember?" He replies. "Are you ok, Jamie, you seem upset?" He says. No s**t, Sherlock! "No, I'm good, just nervous for the party!" I say with a fake chuckle. He looks at me suspiciously, but shrugs his shoulders. "Ok, I don't care anyway." He say. Anger boils inside of me. "Then why did you ask!" I retort. He looks at me saying "I like gossip, especially when I can spread rumors." Why is he being such a jerk! I couldn't hold it. I hated him. I hated Melody. I hated myself. I hated humans. If I could do anything with my life. I would turn into a tiny lizard and sacrifice myself to a snake to become snake poop. "I HATE YOU!" I screamed at the top on my lungs and when the bell rang I stormed off to class, ignoring all my "friends". When it was lunch time I sat alone at the table I sat at in the beginning of the year. Aiden tried to get me to go to his table but I'm not paying attention to him. I was listen to my favorite Hispanic music on my headphones while eating. He walked over to my table and pulled out one of the...thingys. He said "Hey, lazy Jamie, what's up?" I ignored him and continued eating. He sighed and walked away. Then he walked back and said "Are you at least coming to the party?" In response I flipped him off. He walked back and didn't come back.

I walked home and said hi to Ben and Jerry(😏) and went upstairs. They are so awesome and I'm happy I got adopted by them. They had a talk with me after I told them what happened and they said I should go to the party to prove them wrong.

I dressed up in my costume, did my hair, and grabbed my purse before Ben drived me to Aiden's house. I walked in and gosh was this party lit. There was a group of people around the 3 flat screen TVs. Aiden, some boys I didn't know, and girls in sexy clothes were around the game section were people were playing beer pong but with soda instead because no alcohol was allowed. There were a bunch of kids playing twister next to the kids who were dancing to the music. Aiden saw me and his eyes did that twinkle thing that I love. You're still mad at him, Jamie, get a hold of yourself. I straightened up and looked a different direction as he approached me. "You made it! It's so boring here without you." He said. "Why don't you just hang out with Melody instead" I said normaly, but on the inside I felt like a dog barking at a tree. He ignored the last sentence and walked me all the way to his porch, where it was more quiet and less crowded. He held my hand and rubbed his thumb on my knuckle. "You ok? You been acting kinda shady lately." The only thing I was looking at was his eyes. They were twinkling. I love it when they twinkle. Twinkle.... "Twinkle!" I said dreamily. Stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Ugh. I looked away blushing. He laughed. "Stop it. I feel stupid!" I said. He stopped and looked deeply into my eyes. "Jamie, when I first saw you, on the floor, looking kinda dead, I thought you were beautiful, and I still do." He said. I scoff and try walking away but he grabbed my arm. My weakness. "Ugh! Why do you know me so well!" I say. He laughs and says "I've known you for two months Ja-" Two teens burst through the door kissing like crazy. Me and Aiden look at each other and decide it's best to leave. At some point I gave in, and told Aiden what I saw that made me upset. He didn't have anything to say for himself so I left the party. He's so cool...not!