His Secret Girlfriend

Part 3

Laksh's POV

           I walked into the kitchen to find Ragini standing in front of the counter making tea. Yesterday night's incident rushed through my mind and I couldn't help but feel guilty.

I knew she heard me coming but what surprised me was I didn't get any morning hug as usual. Even, when I woke up, I didn't find her snuggled up-to me as usual. This only made it feel worse.

My voice got stuck and I couldn't find any word to start a conversation with her. Soon enough, she turned with a cup of tea and placed it in front of me.

Please look at me, I prayed in my head and as if my prayer was heard, she looked up at me and flashed her usual cheery smile. But still I could see a glint of sadness in her eyes.

" Ragu... I'm really sorry for yesterday.. I.. "

" It's okay Laksh... In fact I'm the who should be guilty. I'm sorry. "

I smiled at her and shook my head. She would never make me feel as if anything would be my fault. She was the one who always took it upon herself.

" Laksh? " I looked up at her and frowned when I saw a different expression on her face. What's the matter?

" Hmm? "

Ragini looked down at her cup as if she was having a fight with herself.

" Ummm... Are you tired of me? "

The question caught me off-guard. What the hell??
" What? "

She looked up at me and bit her lips. " Are you done with me? " . This time, her voice cracked.
Oh god!! Did I mess up?

I got off my chair and walked towards her side. I took her hand and made her stand. Taking her face in my hands, I looked into her eyes.

" And what made you say that, huh? Baby, I can never be tired of you. You're my life. I love you. "

I searched her face for some sort of relief but there was nothing. She wasn't convinced.

" Is it about yesterday?  Ragu.. I was just out of my mind and I... God!  How should I explain this to you? There's a lot of things going on in my mind. And I just got frustrated. "

This time, her face showed concern.

" What is it Laksh? Everything's okay, right? What's disturbing you? "

I shook my head at that. It's always like this. Even if she's having any problem, she would get worried about mine first and not hers. She was too selfless.

" You wouldn't understand." I said stepping back.

She frowned and stepped forward. "What do you mean I won't understand? Laksh, I've shared each and every single thing with you..

Now, she was getting on my nerves. I don't want to share anything with her. I can't trust her with my secrets.

" And that's my fault? " I asked.

Her eyes widened as that. " Huh?"

I chuckled bitterly, "And you sharing your thoughts with me has nothing to do with this. I'm not going to tell you anything."

She kept silent and this just snapped something inside me. Oh no!  I should stop before saying anything stupid.
But I laughed.

" I would rather share it with someone understanding than share with a stupid like you."

What the hell am I saying?

" And... God!! You're so stupid. You thought all the time I say I'm busy with practice, you actually believed it. "

Her eyes filled with tears as she frowned. I should really stop. But the anger inside me won over my brain.

" In fact I was with Aastha. You know what? She's far better than you."

That's it... I should stop.
I gripped onto the table, trying to regulate my breathing and calm myself down.

I looked over at Ragini only to realize the blunder I'd created.
She was a mess. Tears streaked her cheeks and she looked broken.

I stepped forward trying to hold her but she turned over ran upstairs. Fuck!

I started to follow her but was stopped to the ringing of my phone. I took it out to find my producer calling. I sighed and took my jacket and left for the studio.

I would talk to her and sort out the mess once I return. I'm really sorry.

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Okay, so what was that?  Ehem... Don't kill me.