i am not sure what i want
i know i'm confident
but sometimes i don't feel like i am.
i overthink,
not knowing what i want
or what i want to do.
i think about all the horrible possibilities,
never the good ones.
when you think that way it evens up becoming
reality
reality ,which i'm running from
running away from the fact i don't know what i want.
age plays a role but
we all aren't the age our body is.
it's soul deep , spiritual
maybe it's because i overthink about death?
i know it's coming soon...
i'm just not sure how.
i know where i am going
i just want more confirmation.
he repeats to me,
if you really want something then you would do it.
it's not the top thing on my list. i don't really want it
at least not as much as you want me
... or as you say you do.
you don't have to front to get what you want.
i'll never chase a male.
you come to me;
show me how much you want me
i'll base my decision on that.
