I shed my tears as I walked by. I didn’t know it would turn out likes this. We we’re happy, laughing at our jokes. But, today is so different. You were smiling. I didn’t know that I cannot say the words I want to say. You leave me there hanging, waiting for your answer. And now, it’s just the past. Today, I’m tracing the paths of forbidden petals.
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It feels like heaven as I enter my room. It seems like I was just an elementary student. As I sat down, I familiarize myself. My classmates were laughing as if they really knew each other. But let me broke that thought, I saw the most arrogant boy in the Earth. Ofcourse, who would not know Schieler Kwon, huh? He’s been my classmate since I was in Grade 1. And he sat beside me. Oh, why on Earth would he do that? Then, he left a petal of rose on my desk. What? Does he come from a cemetery? Suddenly someone shouted destiny. Because they were teasing my classmates. Destiny? I found myself thinking that I’m destined with the player Schieler Kwon. Uhh, as if. AS IF.
A petal fell from my journal. That was the first time you gave me that petal from a rose. I thought, it doesn’t mean anything but now, it is the path.
I was walking down on a street when a car almost hit me. But, you saved me. I was really in the state of shock that time. You saved me, although we’re not that close. Never in my entire life I would imagine that the arrogant and the most infamous man would save me. You almost got bruise. You almost hug me. And what’s with my heart? It’s really beating so fast. I didn’t know that you left a petal on my bag, again. Seriously, are you from cemetery or a grave digger?
Another petal fell. I smiled when I realized that you almost hug me. I wish that hug would really forever. That was the second time you gave me a petal again. I thought, it doesn’t mean anything but now, it is the path.
Today is our graduation day. Finally, after all these years, after all of my hard works, it is being paid off. Can you believe it? I’m the Summa Cum Laude and believe it or not, Schieler Kwon is the Cum Laude. Well, although he is that infamous, he’s really serious with his studies. I must congratulate him too. I look for him around and I can’t find him. My classmates said that I should go to the School Gym because he is waiting there.
As I walk by, I saw him standing there and smiling. Well, he is handsome though. So, I walk onto him and congratulate him. Smiles flash on his face. He then got the guitar and sang a song. Oh, he has a great voice. And my heart is beating so fast. I couldn’t help it. I might fall for him. Then, he bent down his knees and says his true feelings for me. Oh yes, the infamous man is confessing his feelings for me. He then gave me a petal of rose.
The memories I have lived with you. You have become my first. And thought it will also be the last. That was the last time you gave me a petal. And it is indeed the path.
This time we celebrated our 2 years anniversary at the N Seoul Tower here at Korea. We simply put love padlock that will symbolize our love. Then, you bent down in front of many people and confess your infinite love for me. Suddenly, you take the ring out of your pocket. I was indeed the happiest girl. Imagine, I wouldn’t think myself that I will be engage in the most infamous man in the Earth. It is really destiny. This time, you gave me a rose and not a petal.
That was the first time you gave me a rose. I was really happy because it is a white rose. It’s my favorite. I almost see myself crying. I can’t believe that it will be the last time. Because today, it will be forbidden.
I was mesmerized as I walked down in the aisle. I am holding the bouquet Kwon chose. It is not a rose, nor a petal but a bouquet. Today is the day I should be happy. Today is December 24, 2013. But one phone call changes everything. Today is the day you left me. You left me hanging there. I thought you’ll just rest for a while, but you didn’t wake up. Everybody is crying. And there’s a fact that you really left me.
That was the last time. That was the last time I saw you. Tears dropped from my eyes again. You left me hanging there. That was the day I should have told you that I really love you. I really do. I do. But now, it’s as if I was tracing our own paths.
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Now, you’re smiling like an angel. It’s been one month I guess. A month full of sorrow and sadness. I shed my tears as I walked by. Everytime I could see your grave, I’m almost dying. But, I will love you till the end. I will always be your “Athena Jung”. And, someday I will be “Athena Kwon”. But for today, I’m tracing the paths of forbidden petals.
