Psycho

Stalking

First thing that popped up in my mind is to stab Mason. That will gave me opportunity to run away cause he wont be able to run to get me. And he will feel the same pain Charlie and Jess did.
But i am ready to stab myself if i am unable to hurt him.
Ether i will die or if he cares for me as much as he says he will take me to hospital and than there someone will help me.
Anything just to get out of this. 
He is taking small slowly steps towards me and my grip on knife is just getting stronger.
Should i try to attack him, or should i wait till he approaches me?
Didnt have too much time to think because he made big step towards me and is reaching for a knife in my hands.
I managed to dodge him and i swung a knife in his direction, but unfortunately he was prepared for this and he moved to the side out of my reach. If i attack him again i am pretty sure he will fool me and take my knife, so i stay put. Waiting.
But so pissed off that i didnt succeeded i decided for a plan B. 
It is harder than i thought it would be. Without too much thinking i quickly turned knife with shaky hands in my direction. With my eyes glued on the knife i pulled it. 
But the knife never went through me. 
Now it wasnt just me who was holding knife. Masons hands were wrapped around mines and making sure that i cant move it. 
I struggled and dont want to give up. With every fail attempt i screamed louder and louder. Tears building up in my eyes. My grip around knife loosed and Mason placed it again in his spot. 

"Let me take you to your room. You need to rest."

He took me by my hand and start to pull me after him. I tried to get free from his grip and every time that i will be close to that he will turn around and steady me till he is wrapping his hand around mine. Every now and then i would trip on my own feet or on a basically nothing and he will catch me. We approached last door on the second floor of the house. It is as Mason likes to call it my room. We got in and he made sure that the doors are closed and locked. He guided me to the bed and i sit down, he crouched in front of me and was still holding my hand while with the other one is gently stroking my thigh watching me cry my eyes out. Without a word he watched me and waited till i calmed down. Till my body is too tired to do anything. "You feeling better now?"I didnt say anything, didnt even look at him. But he didnt mind. He got up and kissed me on my temple. I wiped it off with disgust. He sighed."I know that this is all new to you and you have never been in this house before so you are feeling uncomfortable. But i thought of that and i want to give you everything the best, and everything you love so i brought here all your favorite things. Let me show you."My eyes still glued to the floor, my body not making a single move.He crouched again and his extended hand appeared in my view. But after i didnt take it he get gentle hold of my hand and pulled me up. He turned me around to face bed and stood behind me."You see i know you have this type of bed at home and you told me so many times how your bed in place that you were staying for a collage was uncomfortable so i got you this one. "He guided me to the wardrobe and opened it."And i bought all of your favorite clothes. You got here that black jeans that you wear all the time, and also that gray sweater that you and Sara have. And that red dress that you wore to your cousins wedding and you said that you felt so good in her."He was pulling out every piece of clothing he was talking about and than neatly placing it back among all other clothes. Big smile never left his face. Glow in his eyes making him look like a little kid that is showing his mom something he made and is so proud of.Taking hold of my hand again and moving me to the vanity. Exactly the same that i saw on one picture and always wanted."I know that this is probably making you happier than anything. It looks the same one that you wanted. I found it, it took me a lot of time but i found it, and now it is yours. With all of your makeup, perfumes and creams."All of the make up neatly placed on the vanity one one side and perfumes and creams on the other. And every single one is the one that i always buy, that i love the most. But i never talked with him about my make up or cremes that i use."How do you know this?"Weak and unsure voice left my mouth."You told me about it."He tries to keep his happy smile but it is evident that is slowly becoming nervous smile."No i didnt we never talked about this.""Baby you must of forgot about it then."I shook my head. The look on his face scaring me and i have concluded that is the best if i dont say anything.His smile slowly faded and i could tell he is nervous. "OK you got me."He laughed nervously."I found out. But that is just because i care about you so much and i want you to feel the best here in our house .""How did you found out, and our house? This is not my house, it will never be!"Somehow i found strength and my voice is becoming louder with every sentence that left my mouth."What. what do you mean it is not your house? Look you have here everything you love, and i even painted the walls with the white color that you like and covered the old cream colored ones. ""I told you this will never be my house! I want to get out of this, to get as far away from you as i can!""You dont mean that seriously, i know that, it is just that you are not use to it, but look you have your own bathroom, with again everything that you always use. "Smile will occasionally appear on his face but quickly fade away into his sad face. His movements arent enthusiastic like they were at the beginning of our little tour around the room.Yelling at him didnt help, nether did running away so the only thing that i have left to try is to nicely explain everything to him."Mason look.."I approached him, taking deep breath to calm myself down, i cant stand being so close to him but i have to try.As soon as i stepped closer to him his eyes light up again. He reached for my hand but i moved my away from him."I cant stay here. And you know that, i have to get back at my place."The whole time he is shaking his head no."Maybe here i got all of this stuff but i cant be alone here.""You are not alone you have me.""Mason, no, you know what i mean, i need everyone else.""But they want to hurt you.""No they dont, you just think that they do.""They do i know!""What are you talking about? No one is trying to hurt me! The only one who hurt me is you!You killed Charlie, you dragged me here against my will."A tear escaped from his eye and i couldnt care less. "No baby listen to me. I am not going to hurt you, i did nothing to you, i never will, i am just punishing the ones that did.""Charlie never hurt me and you killed him!""Charlie is not..""Dont you dare ever say his name again! Get out! Now!"My hart hurts so much, i was screaming at him but it didnt help, i wanted to cry but i was too angry to do so.Mason lowered his head for a second and than looked me again. "I told you to get out! Leave me alone!"If he wont let me out of here at last i will make him get out of the room, i cant be around him anymore, i cant look at him.He nodded his head and went out and lock doors behind him.