The Devil is My Key

My Fault

Its my fault he's laying in this bed with tubes and wires hooked up to him. If I hadn't wanted to leave so early this wouldn't have happened.

It was so fast. One moment he was holding me in his arms, the next...he was gasping for air. I don't know what happened. Maybe the driver had too much to drink, maybe he was tired, maybe he was replying to a text. Who knows. All I care about is Sebastian. He looks so weak, however, he looks better than he did when we brought him here.

When we first brought him here, he was on the verge of death. I was crying my eyes out. The doctors didn't know if he would make it. However, even so, he did. He was in a coma, but at least he was still breathing (with the help of the machines).

The doctors made his case seem hopless like he was dying. Of course, I couldn't have that. I can't fathom the idea of losing him. Not here, not now, not ever.

"Ciel, you need to eat something." My friend Mey said as she brought in a tray of food for me. I sigh and stare at the love of my life. His face looks like its made of porcelin. He's so beautiful. He looks so peaceful. At that moment, I wondered if he really was at peace.

"Ciel!" Mey's voice awakened me to reality. I couldn't eat. I've been starving myself the three weeks we've been here. I'm to depressed to eat or move or even think about anything else but him.

"No." I simply said never once shifting my gaze from him. She sighed and didn't bother to persuade me because she knew it wouldn't work. I assumed she just left since the only thing I heard was the click of the door being shut. I sighed and held his hand tight.

"Sebastian, my love, squeeze my hand if you can hear me."

Nothing. I tried again.

"Sebastian, if you can hear me, squeeze my hand."

Again, I was disappointed with nothing. So I did the only thing that would lighten the mood, I started singing.

" I’ve waited a hundred years But I’d wait a million more for you Nothing prepared me for What the privilege of being yours would do. If I had only felt the warmth within your touch If I had only seen how you smile when you blush Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough Well I would have known What I was living for all along What I’ve been living for." When I finished singing, I had realized I started crying. I'm so easy to break. But I don't blame myself. I'm about to lose the love of my life. No. I wont say that. That isn't true.

Suddenly, i feel my hand being squeezed gently. At that moment, I instantly stop crying and my face lights up. He's alive! He's still in there!

"MEY! MEYRIN! MEY! COME IN HERE!" The poor girl bursts into the door with a look of freight on her face.

"What?! Whats wrong?! What happened?! Are you hurt?!"

I shake my head and cry in joy. "M...Mey! He responded to me!" Her eyes filled with tears and she had the biggest smile on her face. She ran over to me and hugged me as tight as she could.

"See! I told you, Ciel!" I smiled and laughed a little.

"Oh thank you, lord! You've saved him!" We cry and hold each other close, and I never once let go of his hand. At that moment, I was the happiest person on earth. He was slowlu coming out of his coma and I couldn't wait until he was fully awake. I couldn't wait for him to hold me in his arms and tell me he loved me. Oh how I wished time would speed by.

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Exactly three weeks later he never did do much then squeeze my hand every now and then, but that was always better than nothing.

I sat there one afternoon staring at him again. I could not get enough of his beautiful face. He is so perfect, I can't even put it into words. Like any other day, I sat by his bed and held his hand tight. I would always love how warm his hand is even if he was...well...unconsious. "I love you." I said to him, but of course there was no reply. I gently picked his hand up and kissed it. I wanted to be careful with him. He meant the world to me and if I lost him, I would die.

"My husband." I said with a little chuckle. That phrase got butterflies in my stomach. I haven't really gotten use to saying it. I lay my head down on his stomach, without pressing amy weight on his body. I looked out the hospital window and saw two birds tweeting at each other. Such an adorable sight, I thought. I smile warmly and lift my head up and look at him again. I lean in to him and rub my nose against his. "Hmm" I sigh in contempt. His skin is as soft as...those really soft hotel beds...

I smile feeling him with me. I lean in closer and connect his lips to mine.

I finally got a reaction, but it wasnt the one I was looking for. Sebastian's eyes opened amd he threw me at the wall with super human strength. No, I'm not exagerating. This was for real. I didn't know if I should feel happy or hurt, so I looked at him with both. Why had he thrown me off him, and how was he so strong?

"S...Sebastian..." I said, not realizing how shakey my voice sounded. He looked at me confused, but what hurt the most was what he said after.

Then my whole body went numb.

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Alright, so I'd like to apologise to all of my readers for not updating in a very long time. Okay so I have finally come up with a reason. *clears throat* I have lost interest in my writing. *LEH GASP* Must be what most of you are doing right now. Well, it's true. I didn't think my writing was all that great. No thanks to fanfiction.net cuz well no one asked for an update so...they get none. However, my readers on here, you guys are amazing! I got so many comments/reviews asking for an update?! Honestly it made me smile! You are all wonderful! Anyhoo, I did write this on my phone and yes I do realize there are grammar, spelling, and typo errors, however, going through this again will cause me to delay the update which I didn't want to do. I want you guys to have the best but honestly, please dont leave a million comments telling me I spelled this and that wrong and I need a comma here and there because I will reply with an "i dont give a fuck". I AM NOT SO MEAN IF YOU GET TO KNOW ME. Alright well, thats all I guess. Oh..one more thing...IF YOU HAVENT CHECKED OUT MY KNEW STORY GO CHECK IT OUT! ITS CALLED CLASH OF ROOMMATED. Oh and um....should I do shoutouts?! Idk.... Okay so leave a comment and tell me how I did. Untill next time, bye my lovelies ♥