Ignoring My Attraction

Chapter 9

Silver’s POV:

He came even closer and the pain in my heart and body stopped and I calmed down.  My wolf screamed mate. And I screamed back at her to shut up.

He was finally 10 feet away from me.

“ Silver , I’m not gonna hurt you ok? I’m just going to help you. Now can you tell me if you ok?” he said softly .

No ! why is he so nice to me! I don’t want him. Why can’t he just leave me alone. So I started crying. I cried because he was nice. Because he cared and I hated it.

I hate him with a passion.

I felt him bend down and pull me up and he hugged me to him. And I cried into his chest. At the instant contact of our bodies, I felt like I was in heaven. My body was on a magical fire, and i bite my lip to stop a moan.

What was he doing to me?

i had butterflies and my heart beat speed up full speed.

I shivered at his hand that was at my back holding me.  I guess he thought I was shivering from cold cause he took a shirt and gently gave it to me.

And when I did nothing with it, he took it and put it over my head and on me.

Not even once had he looked at my naked body. He was a total gentleman. Horror struck me. What if he didn’t look cause he didn’t like it.

Did he think I was ugly? I became self conscious for the first time in years. I hate him.

Well if the thinks i'm ugly that's his fault.

“ Silver please talk to me .” he almost begged.

“NO!” I said.

“Why ?” he said looking hurt.

“I don’t want you to be my mate. “ I said quietly.

I wasn’t expecting it when he wrapped me up in a tight hug. Then he lifted me bridal style and started walking. I didn’t like this at all.

I hated this in fact, that’s why I tried to get him to put me down. I struggled to be let loose.

"let me down!" punch in the chest. " I hate you !" a lot of punches in his chest.

After  a while of me fusing and asking him to put me down he finally did.

And I wanted to be back in his arms , because my body wanted his, and because all the butterflies stopped and I became cold.

I curesed him in my mind. He did this on purpose. he's making me feel this way to want him.

So I tackled him to the floor and sat on top of him. He looked shocked and surprised. Oh trust me I surprised my self also.

i punched him in the chest and he grabbed my hands gently. ugh!.

I hated how when our bodies were touching, there was little eletric shocks, that felt so good.

I want him so bad right now. NO!NO!NO! stop lying to yourself , Silver! you hate him. Yup not that's what i want to here.

My wolf screamed at me to kiss him, and I lost control. Again.