You never really see the redflags until it's too late...
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I really liked you, practically from the minute I met you.
You were cute,
Funny,
Stupid but, in a good way.
But you were also taken. But I didnt know that at the time.
We started hanging out a lot after we met. You'd walk me to class, sit with me at lunch, skip your class to be in mine. So of course, i started liking you more.
I still remember the day I found out you had a girlfriend. We were walking down the hallway, and someone yelled that they were ganna tell you girl that you was hanging with someone else. You just blew it off, and we kept walking.
I texted you later that day and asked about it. You told you had one, but she knew about me and she knew most of your friends were girls and didn't have a problem with it.
So neither did I.
So we kept hanging out..We would go to the library and community center after school with our friends, we went to every basketball game of the season just so we could see eachother.
A few weeks after we really started hanging out you skipped your class to be in my math class with me. I was doing my work, and you were basically just distracting me, but i didn't mind. Our teacher was teaching a new lesson, so i was trying to pay attention, but you kept typing messages onto the calculator
"Nerd"
"Loser"
And it made me smile, cause you were such a dork, but i told you to do your work..and you typed in the calculator again.
"Okay beautiful "
I guess that should have been red flag #1. Because you were calling me beautiful, when you had a girlfriend.
My face got red, and you made fun of me about it, but we did our work and had more fun.
You texted me later that night..and in the middle of us talking you called me beautiful again, but this time you wasn't there to see how red I got.
And I asked why you called me beautiful if you had a girlfriend, cause I knew if you were mine, and i found out you were calling another girl that, I'd feel bad.
So you stopped. And it sucked, but i knew it was right.
You asked me who I liked, but i couldn't tell you...cause it was you.
But you already knew that then..right?
Cause when i didnt tell you, you asked what id do if the person I liked kissed me, how I would respond. And i told you that would never happen, because the person I liked, wasn't available....
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It was finals week and we had half days, so we hung out at the only place we could. The community center.
Everyday, we would meet there, and wouldn't leave until 7/8 at night.
One day, you were leaving before me and you gave me a hug. It was the first time, but wasn't the last .
The next day you came and we were hanging around at the park, you held up your phone and told us you were single.
You had broken up with your girlfriend.
And as bad as it sounds, part of me was happy, but the other part knew you didn't like me...or so i thought.
Later that night, we were inside in the game room and you asked me to go walk the indoor track with you. I was scared at first because we've never been alone before, but i went.
And that's when you asked me out, my face was as red as a tomato, and i said yes.
But not before asking why, since you just broke up with your girlfriend the same day, you said you didn't like her anymore, thats you've liked me for awhile.
I guess that was red flag #2.
A few days passed and you said you needed to go talk to your ex about a few things, you felt bad about hurting her, and just wanted to make sure she was okay, because even if you didn't like her in that way, you was still her friend.
You were my first real relationship, so i didn't know what i was doing, and i trusted you.
That was my mistake..
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