• my random •

-broken soul-

i feared this day would come again.
when the monsters come to play their games.

to toy with my feelings once more. 
to flood my mind with disgusting thoughts.
oh how they wreck me from within.
leaving me a crying mess.
mocking all i do and say.
making me hate my own existence.

the games they play are truly sickening.
taunting me with their venomous words.
then laughing at how i fall apart.

destroying my future as they did my past.
corrupting my mind is what they love most.

watching me suffer is so pleasing in their eyes.
to conflict pain and misery upon me is a hobby they enjoy all so well...

"please just go away"
i beg for the millionth time.
my pleads being merely a joke to them.

"if we go, so do you"
they grin.
chanting all together the same melody-
"deaths calling you~"
they sing song.
my stomach turns at the horrible thoughts.

"i don't want to die"
i cry out.

"but you will soon"
they whisper all so disturbingly.

"no, no i won't!"
i scream in denial.
my head filling with chuckles and murmurs.
things i wish dearly to forget...

i sweat nervously as my legs wonder on there own.
leading me to places as i fight my chaotic mind.

the facade i once wore has fallen off.
allowing all to see the truth behind my smile as i walk aimlessly throughout the streets.

my heart shattered too many times for glue to repare.
so i walk brokenly with shattered eyes...

i take in my surroundings as my legs are brought to a halt.
my soul cracks as i know why i'm here.

"please"
i plead.
closing my eyelids as no tears will fall.

"please"
i beg one last time.
unwillingly taking a step forward.

"i don't want this"
i whisper.
taking one last step.

"goodbye"
they tease,
as i fall from the cliff...