Behind My Smile - (COMPLETED)

I didn't mean to ??

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(Briasia)
My body hurts so much , It feels like Iam being stabbed over and over and over again , I can't feel my legs but I can feel everything else . I can't speak , I can't move I can't even breathe . Waiiit I can't breathe holy shit !!! I try to breathe but I can't , I try to speak nothing I try to move nothing this can't be happening can it ? I feel someone giving me CPR and than I take a huge gasp of air and start having a cough attack , there is blood all over me and all over were Iam laying , Someone sits me up and pats my back rather hard "whaa" I try to speak but I start coughing again , more blood . It's not a lot but it's concerning to me . I look up and pop my eyes open wide "Lee" I say trying to get her attention "Lee" I say once again "She can speak" someone says "what's your name , do you know where you are?" It's a paramedic "umm my name ugh Bri and I'm..." I get cut off by Lee "You're in the ambulance but we will be at the hospital soon ." She grabs my hands and caress them . I close my eyes shut and take long deep breathes , My body's so achy 😖 I can't even move much "Lee c-c-col-d-d-d" I try to say I'm cold but I can't speak well and I'm shivering . "I'm sorry Bri but you can't have a blanket" the female medic says. I let out a sigh and close my eyes .
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💐2 Days Later💐
{Lee}
It's been 2 days since briasia had been beaten and shot , She fell into a coma . They were able to remove the bullets through surgery , The Nurse Marria thinks she will not have use of her legs , Briasia and Reece don't know this yet . Reece told the Dr. to tell me everything going on , She couldn't handle seeing Briasia like this even though she is the one who did it . Briasia is like this because her dumb ass thought it would be ok to pull out a fuckin gun and shoot someone she supposedly loves . "Dumb bitch" I say before picking up my iPhone X and calling Reece
Reece: What's up Lee
Me: Bruh you need to drop by
Reece: mane I can't I'm at work
Me: your fuckin girl got bullet holes in her and you're so tied up sellin stupid ass drugs . GET THE FUCK UP AND BRING YO BLACK ASS OVER HERE !!!!

I hung up on her and texted her
Me: if you do not come here I will personally fuck you up !
Reece: ight ight I'm coming 💯

(30 min later) Reece comes in screaming and yelling at me "Why do I have to be here this is so fuckin stupid bruh , I could be out making money but oooo nooo I ...." I cut her off with a punch to the face "YOUR GIRL IS HERE BECAUSE OF YOU STUPID NOW SHUT THE FUCK UP AND SIT DOWN NOW chupa ya kijinga"(stupid bitch) I yell at her than call her a stupid bitch in Swahili
"desearás nunca haberle hecho esto" ( you will wish you never did this to her) I scream at Reece than walk out of the hospital room .

{Reece -}
My damn jaw hurts shiiit ! "Bitch" I yell out at Lee but she was already to far to hear me . I should've hit her stupid ass back "urghhh" I go over to Briasia and sit in the chair that is accompanied next to her . I hold her hand "Babe I'm sorry , I never meant for any of this to happen" I say to her "I really love you Bri , I love you with everything in me but I don't know how to love !" That didn't make sense Reece !! my brain says to me "bae I need your help to love you right , I need you to come home with me as soon as you can , please babe?!?" I than kiss her cheek and forehead and head out the hospital , while I'm walking I pull out my phone and see if I have any drops I have to do before I head home . "Ight 7 dr..." I accidentally bump into some gorgeous woman "Heyyy daddy" the woman sings than pulls one of my dreads "oooo" she moans "Don't do that bruh , I'm taken" I say trying to walk away but before I could Lee walks up on me from behind and grabs a handful of my dreads and pulls me back "She's taken hoe, Now bounce" Lee lifted part of her shirt showing her gun and her badge .  That beautiful woman takes off and Lee finally lets go of my dreads "That just looked like we're together , really mufucka" I say to Lee  "Awww wu big wad or lil wad(mad)?" We both chuckle and than I playfully punch her in the stomach "you hit like a bitch" she says  I just look down at my red and gold custom timberlands . Today was a rainy cold day and yesterday it was snowing , bipolar ass weather ehh . "You know , what happened to Briasia was a honest mistake of mine" I start rubbing the back of my neck  " I fucked up Lee and I regret the shit , I didn't want to come because I didn't want to see her like this ! You know?in a hospital bed , unable to do anything" I say pushing my dreads from my face . " yeah well you knew exactly what you were doing and to be honest I think you should just go and leave her be ! Let her heal without you by her side . Say your goodbyes and part ways" Lee spoke

I was so angry I stormed out the hospital not saying anything to Lee , I search for my car and get inside "Fuck FUCK MAN OH MY GOSH" I scream and punch the steering wheel repeatedly, Tears started rolling down my eyes and I couldn't take anymore ! I turn the radio on 🎶 hmmm hmmm
Feels so different being here
I'm so used to being next to you
Life for me is not the same
Theres no-one to talk to
Don't know why I let it go too far
Starting over it's so hard
Seems like everywhere I try to go🎶
I change the station 🎶 I don't wanna lose this relationship,
So we gotta stay strong don't wanna move on
I know you sick and tired of the fussin' and da fightin' and da cussin'
But I love you and you love me too🎶
"Ohh fuck this bullshit" I yell and turn the radio off . I head to Crauon street to make a few drops as soon as I pull up on the 6th house on the left I play this tune with the horn pull out the bags and this big tall nigga bout 6'7 walks out , dark skinned with black waves . He comes to the window and does the special knock I roll down the window and we greet hands . I count the cash which he handed me in single dollar bills "What the fuck , singles - really" I continue to count ight ight "two hunnit" I say outloud than pull off . I pull up on *Cheddit street* play a different tune with the horn and some skinny white chick comes up to the car "hey baby" she says. I don't speak I just exchange hands and count the cash $300 ight . After selling the rest I have $700.00 .

I pull up at my house , cut the engine and take the money and bag inside . I open my safe and put rubber bands around each $100.00 than I lock the safe up and go upstairs to shower "dayum I miss Bri" I said aloud .
Good thing I lied to the police and so did Lee .  I can't wait to see bae 😭 "Fuck What Lee thinks !!!!" I scream