For You |Buckin|

Will I See Heaven In Mine

 April 2002

  The two had stayed nearly the whole day together. Jonny asked carefully, "Could I, stay the night?" Chris nodded, "Of course!" Jonny looked through his kitchen, "You have nothing to make it here, what do you even eat?" Chris shrugged, "Fast food." Jonny closed a cabinet, "You know what, let's go to the supermarket right now and buy you proper food." Chris smiled, "Alright, sounds fun." 

  Jonny grabbed his car keys, "I can drive." The two walked hand in hand to the parking lot in front of Chris' apartment complex. Jonny hopped in his car and turned on the radio. Once Chris got in Jonny asked, "Did you buckle?" Chris chuckled, "I'm not a child." Jonny shrugged, "Just checking on my precious cargo." 

  Chris rolled his eyes and looked out the window. Jonny parked in front of a cheap supermarket. Chris chuckled nervously, "Y'know I haven't been into a real supermarket in a while." Jonny looked worried for a second before laughing along.

  He leaned over and pressed his lips against Chris'. Chris kissed back and pulled away reluctantly, "We're in public Jonny boy." Jonny scrunched his nose and exhaled sharply, "Yeah, I know" They got out of the car and Jonny tired to hold Chris' hand. Chris sighed and pulled his hand back, "People can see us." Jonny frowned and nodded slowly, "I forgot." 

  Jonny was still disappointed that Chris was too embarrassed about their relationship but, Jonny understood where that shame was coming from. Many artists and actors had been shamed in the last few years for their feelings. It wouldn't just affect them but, Will and Guy also would be scrutinized for working alongside them. 

  Chris began to wander through the store with Jonny following behind. Chris squinted at a sign, "Pasta noodles, yeah. That's important to have." He picked up a box and placed it in his cart. Jonny sighed, "You also somehow don't have water bottles." Chris nodded, "We can get those too." They bought various common household items and foods that he was lacking.

  After purchasing, they put the bags in the trunk of Jonny's old car.  Once they arrived at Chris' flat Chris asked, "So, what are we gonna be eating tonight?" Jonny said, "Probably the salmon we bought" Chris pulled it out of the bag and tossed it to Jonny. Jonny cut the plastic wrap and asked, "Can you get me a pan?" For the next forty minutes, they worked together to create a decent tasting meal. 

  The two sat next to each other on the couch as they ate. Chris turned on the television to the news and the two watched silently. Jonny grinned, "This tastes pretty good." Once Chris finished he took Jonny and his own plate to the kitchen. He dropped it off and sat back on the couch next to Jonny.

  Chris turned his head and kissed Jonny's neck. Jonny grinned and closed his eyes as he quietly hummed. Chris pulled himself onto Jonny's lap and Jonny opened his eyes and looked up at Chris. Jonny reached out and caressed Chris' face. Jonny chuckled, "I don't know how I ended up with you..." Chris shook his head, "I'm the lucky one." 

  Jonny leaned forward and kissed Chris, "I think I'm gonna go to sleep now." Chris frowned for a moment before nodding, "Yeah, I'm pretty tired too." 

  Chris got off Jonny and walked to his restroom. Jonny knocked on the bathroom door, "I'm gonna take some of your clothing if you don't mind." Chris shouted between brushing his teeth, "Go ahead!" Jonny opened one of Chris' drawers and frowned as he thought his clothes would be too tight on him. After going through most of the drawers he found a pair of pants that would fit him.

   After Chris finished in the bathroom he raised an eyebrow, "Could you not find a shirt?" Jonny blushed, "I'm a bit too wide... for your shirts." Chris almost laughed but, he held back, "Oh, alright." 

  Chris got into bed and Jonny turned off the lights before laying down next to him. Chris pulled Jonny towards him and kissed his cheek, "Good night Jonny boy." Jonny smiled, "Night." Jonny had a night that was better than most of his lonely ones. Chris whispered into his ear a few times before eventually his breathing slowed and they both were asleep.