There are petals in my hair
And dandelion roots in my scalp
That sing of autumn
In the July heat.
Watermelon promises sit on my tongue
As ice tea melts in my throat
Reminding me of your taste
That felt like forever ago.
The water collapses over my head
As I dive into daddy's pool
And breathe the water in;
A sweet release from the hot air.
I begin to pick at the gills on my neck
Hoping to see the scabs float near my eyes
But I am shattered when I see
Only these bubbles pop at the surface.
I emerge from the chemical blue
Gasping for your embrace
Sweat dripping from my brows;
Frustrated with my own weak morals.
I go and sit on the brick edge
Counting the pebbles under me
And I think about eating them;
Small candy pieces in my throat.
Then I remember how you hide dog teeth here
And I grow repulsed by the idea
Of ever eating something you touched
Because nothing is as vile as you.
I fell in love with your snow cone eyes
And your cotton candy words
Eventually learning that my sweet tooth
Only lead to a rotten mouth.
The life that grows from my head
Soon wilts in the heat
So I lay down in the dirt
And count the clouds above me.
I scratch at the mirror shards in my eyes
Because they reflect too much back at me
And I don't like what I see
So I rip them out and hold them in my hands.
Sunscreen stains my skin
And summer drifts by me
As I hide in mother's garden flowers
And say a long goodbye to the moon.
